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I've had this in my mind a couple of days now or so, and I feel it's something I've spoken but never really delved much into.
I have trust problems. A lot. I wholeheartedly believe that I have improved on these issues over the past two or so years, but I still have my weaknesses that at times really do get the best of me at times. Logically I know this is stupid and not true, but emotion ends up overriding logic at times.
I'm suspicious and paranoid about people, even friends. Not continuously, mind you, but there are times my brain jumps to bad conclusions about people and their intentions or what they really think. I fret over abandonment and while it's not as bad as before, I do struggle with not feeling like I'm good enough. That no matter how much I've changed and continue to change, people (namely friends) will avoid me because they hate me. I know not everyone will like me, frankly that doesn't bother me, but there is something about the aforementioned that unsettles me.
I just wanted to put this here out really, probably healthy to do so. Please note this isn't an attack on anybody, just an explanation of some problem I still struggle with now and then.
I know I'm never good enough, but I'm personally happy.
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(04-27-2016, 01:49 PM)Kaltes-Herzeleid Wrote: I have trust problems. A lot. I wholeheartedly believe that I have improved on these issues over the past two or so years, but I still have my weaknesses that at times really do get the best of me at times. Logically I know this is stupid and not true, but emotion ends up overriding logic at times. I, too, feel as though I've made significant progress since my partner came into my life, but I find myself slipping back into old, bad habits in certain environments and under certain circumstances.
I think this is popularly called: Being human / imperfect. Some people have more to deal with than others, and making noticeable progress in spite of those obstacles is something that should be applauded. Even if, from time to time, you still find yourself struggling.
I believe that you - with the support of your Nightmare - have already accomplished things that many people either haven't or might not be able to.
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(04-28-2016, 10:24 AM)TheWarden Wrote: I have been very inactive lately. Not sure why.
You're transforming into a normie!
GET THE HOLY WATER
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Love is bittersweet, sometimes you have to carry on knowing you're partner won't be with you much longer, what's important is that you stay strong for them
Listening to Danger Line by A7X randomly this morning got me thinking.
If going through war is one of the worst things a person can endure, then why the fuck do we still send people over there to do it? It makes no damn sense. Sorry Warden if I offend you.
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How would you solve issues if you were attacked? Or felt you were attacked? Not saying I agree with the Iraq and Afghanistan Wars or the ISIS stuff, but if a country feels threatened they have a right to wage war. Why did we fight in WW1? WW2? Korea? Vietnam? We felt in danger or we were attacked, it's the art of war my friend.
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Love is bittersweet, sometimes you have to carry on knowing you're partner won't be with you much longer, what's important is that you stay strong for them
(04-28-2016, 01:08 PM)EquestrianPenguin Wrote: How would you solve issues if you were attacked? Or felt you were attacked? Not saying I agree with the Iraq and Afghanistan Wars or the ISIS stuff, but if a country feels threatened they have a right to wage war. Why did we fight in WW1? WW2? Korea? Vietnam? We felt in danger or we were attacked, it's the art of war my friend.
Huh.
So I should attack someone if I feel attacked? 'kay, next time someone hates on my interests, I guess I'll shoot them.
Bad sarcasm aside, I don't believe violence is ever a right, but humanity's a fucking tragedy anyway.
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Life always has been shit and humans have been asshole a since the beginning of time, you should stop being a edgy teen and look at the good in the world, there's more good than bad actually
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(04-28-2016, 09:25 PM)EquestrianPenguin Wrote: Life always has been shit and humans have been asshole a since the beginning of time, you should stop being a edgy teen and look at the good in the world, there's more good than bad actually
Yeah. People say I'm negative, and now I think I'm starting to see why.
I can't really agree about there being more good than bad though.
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(04-28-2016, 10:24 AM)TheWarden Wrote: I have been very inactive lately. Not sure why.
I've been the same way, although I have university to blame for that! Not that I mind, of course.
It's nice to pop in every so often to see you around. 
❤ Octavia ❤ Tulpamancing since 2015/10/31 ❤ AMA ❤
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