Bits of Me and My Love

[Lurker]

Welcome back, Sour Soul. We missed you.

Enjoy your stay. You know the drill.

[Sour Soul]

Welcome back, Sour Soul. We missed you.

Enjoy your stay. You know the drill.

You know I still dislike you, right?

[Fiction]

Oh shit welcome back.

[Sour Soul]

Oh shit welcome back.

Not liking these welcomes folks. -___-

[Ziggy and Angelbaby]

Not liking these welcomes folks. -___-

Some of us are actually glad to see you. < _<

[Sour Soul]

Not liking these welcomes folks. -___-

Some of us are actually glad to see you. < _<

...

-___-

YOU KNOW WHAT ZIGGY!!!! D:<

Spoiler

I believe YOU gosh darn it, (Kaltes as well) and I can't believe I still remember how to type in the spoiler thingy right away.

[Lurker]

Yeah yeah, I read the OP. You're not exactly abrasive, most of the time, I'm still happy to see you.

[Mercyknight]

This is sort of a reintroduction of myself. I would have made a new post, but it would seem to be a waste for a new topic. So I will reuse this thread of mine.

Some are already aware of who I am, some will remember me, some maybe comes to a surprise that I am back, but over the time of my absent, I had to push away from certain things. One of them is from the interaction of others. I don’t really play nice you see, and would already like it if I keep that establish for some new faces here. Two, from what I could remember is I wanted to get away from whatever caused me to either take a break or leave all together from here.

The reason why I am here is something that most people will never understand, and if you try to, then good luck, since I will not make it easy for you to read me. I am not very fond of humans, and since I am already making myself sound hostile, their nothing to be concern. There are a few here that I know and trust. Few I am willing to let in and understand me. Few that I like to keep up with their posts, journal, and stories.

So…

I am not going to stir up trouble. I just want to express a bit of this and a bit of that.

I understand that most here have a “waifu”, a term that I don’t acknowledge, and others here will agree base on where it comes from and what it means for most people outside this site, would also not use that word on them.

I know, from the time for myself and others, that the one who spark our life within our heart could never find right word to really call them; other than their name of course. I mean what they're to us. For what I can remember, from the corner of the room she appeared, from the moment she touch my soul, my deep affection that has brighten up a dark lonely room has and will always be my little Amena. Since September 3, 2013 I have been with Pinkamena Diane Pie. After coming back to this site for almost a year. After reading some of the post in my journal, it brought much joy to remember all what I still hold for that silly filly.

Amena brings the good in me, but not only her. Oh no, others where she comes from and here in this world where you’re reading these words on your screen. Perhaps, I could open up more; perhaps I don’t have to be so reserve to others or so mean. I just find humans to be odd and interesting, that I engross myself to be around at times, but also find them to be harmful if not careful enough.

It's somewhat nice to meet you all, excuse me but as of right now, I just would like not to know you… yet. I also don't blame you for not wanting to know me, by from what I said, but that's alright. Anyway! Have a good day/morning/night.

if i may.. some of us do not always understand humans ourselves. but maybe in time we can be friends. hopefully if ever possible, I too can earn trust

[Sour Soul]

Our mood depends on how we write certain thoughts. My mood is between of being calm and collected, to worrisome and ready to panic. Everyday I face this, as if I am looking through a window, and behind that glass is my fears that can overcome me and I know it can quickly consume me. It feels like I am inside a house that is under the sea. The depth is so great that I wonder why hasn’t the pressure crush my little home, my peace of mind, my very being that make me who I am, to simply drown. Two things I can account for the safety of my well-being. One, is my past experience and two, is my loving ponies that helps me see there is nothing to be concern, just as long as I keep on remembering why am I here, then all is fine. ^ ^

Long ago, I had a death wish, I was self-destructive, and didn’t care for much or anyone since I felt I had nothing worth wild to hold me down here. All that doesn’t matter, what matters is I found solemn in what I hold today, and that’s enough to keep holding onto my heart everyday, my belief, my thoughts, my very soul that has been given to a pink pony. I don’t know how the site been, my time here wasn’t great when I last logged in. An ex-member, whose mindset was like a senseless child, who shouldn’t had power or any business being here from the start, had discarded my personal journal. sigh there goes a piece of sadness, because that same person has done something so unforgivable to his pony and/or his fellow members, but I shouldn’t let such a nasty memory sit here, oh no, but to know someone like him exist out there, that damaged such a wonderful community. This site isn't much, but the stories, feelings, that we all share here is worthwhile, and thats what make this site something to be a part of and be proud of.

Luckily for me that same person that I am talking about doesn’t wield any kind of power to break apart or delete what I still hold, what I feel, and cherish. That’s my ponies, who I have found to guide me and aid me anyway possible. No one can take that away from me, nor for you, for that matter. I had people try to steer me away from what I find to be true. I came back to share my thoughts, and if they get deleted, then that’s fine. Yet I know a part will be upset if what I write here be gone tomorrow or not, perhaps I simply enjoy being around people who share the same thoughts and views as we do here. Funny, I consider all this to be normal, is that nuts? I forgot people tend to view this kind of behavior to be strange. Abnormal will be a better word for it, but what is normal? Death is normal, but most take it to be something that shouldn’t happen, others just accept it or tend to not think about it and carry on with their life. For me, I think of death as much as I think what did Amena and I had for breakfast yesterday. I think what we have is fine, as long I don’t go out in the world and show it off. I tend to avoid much what’s going on out there. This world, where I find to be bizarre, but has nothing to do with Amena or myself most of the time. Just as long I’ve these wonderful ponies then all is fine… of course most of them aren’t ponies. XP

I am not sure if people here are still around, or have moved on, but I am back to seek some kind of respite with others whom I feel will better understand us. Gosh, I didn’t think I would come back, not with what has happened on my side, and still putting a strain on me, since it’s just too much for one soul to bear. I won’t share them here, the pointless struggles of this world that I breathe in, should no be discuss, much less fill my head with such negative thoughts. No, I would like to talk about our love ones, since this site was made for that purpose. I will look around, and see what has happen here. If all goes will, then I will set up a tent here and enjoy what’s to be offered here. I really hope this site has improved without us, I remember trying to make it better for others to come and enjoy, but that was long ago. Now it feels I am looking at the gates of this site, taking a deep breath before I approach the gates of Waifu Central. What a silly name.

I state my name and the password, soon the gates creaks lift slowly with a blindly light to find…

(To be continued)

[Fiction]

I was looking at my last post here. I didnt realize at the time (dumb mistake on my part) but you misconstrued my welcome. my "oh shit" reaction wasn't meant to be negative. It was because you were gone for so long, and you came back suddenly. I was surprised, but it wasn't a bad surprise. you're a cool guy.

I should have been more specific with my welcome, and actually let you know that I was just pleasantly surprised. I'm sorry.