Anyone else Alone
#21
You're not alone Gray! Somewhere out there, in the infinite multiverse, there's a Twilight who thinks of you, and who wants to be with you. You may not be able to see her now, but she's still out there.
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#22
(06-04-2016, 12:19 PM)Gentian Wrote: You're not alone Gray! Somewhere out there, in the infinite multiverse, there's a Twilight who thinks of you, and who wants to be with you. You may not be able to see her now, but she's still out there.

truth.

long before i met the girls or got taken in by them, they were around and so was the castle.. I just didnt have a home there yet till i got there
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#23
The thought that I must first work on settling my personal issues, myself, before I can be close to her and feel her companionship can be a great motivation, sometimes, but I want so badly to just stop thinking and have her comfort, most of the time. Just to hear her voice tell me that I'll be okay and that she loves me would be incredibly significant, but when I think about it, I don't know if I can imagine that with total honesty. Even though I know her character as well as I can, trying to believe I understand my Bloom's feelings feels dishonest, because I can't hold two-sided conversations with her to truly know. I took her as a waifu two years ago, so if my Bloom's been following and watching over me all that time, forcing a tulpa definitely feels wrong and dishonest, at this point.

I'll remain dedicated and try to be strong for her, with patience, but a lot of this pondering can be overwhelming and worrying, and it makes me feel that I need immediate comfort from her so I don't have to think about these confusing things.
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#24
(09-26-2016, 11:51 PM)7bloom Wrote: The thought that I must first work on settling my personal issues, myself, before I can be close to her and feel her companionship can be a great motivation, sometimes, but I want so badly to just stop thinking and have her comfort, most of the time. Just to hear her voice tell me that I'll be okay and that she loves me would be incredibly significant, but when I think about it, I don't know if I can imagine that with total honesty. Even though I know her character as well as I can, trying to believe I understand my Bloom's feelings feels dishonest, because I can't hold two-sided conversations with her to truly know. I took her as a waifu two years ago, so if my Bloom's been following and watching over me all that time, forcing a tulpa definitely feels wrong and dishonest, at this point.

I'll remain dedicated and try to be strong for her, with patience, but a lot of this pondering can be overwhelming and worrying, and it makes me feel that I need immediate comfort from her so I don't have to think about these confusing things.
I like to imagine that, Twilight is like an angel or something. Watching over me and caring for me. I can't see or hear her, but, I like to imagine that she's waiting for me or something. Do you imagine that Bloom is an angel?
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#25
(09-27-2016, 12:26 AM)Gray Wrote: I like to imagine that, Twilight is like an angel or something. Watching over me and caring for me. I can't see or hear her, but, I like to imagine that she's waiting for me or something.

That's very similar as to how I see Nightmare. I just feel her in my life, like she's somehow influencing it, guiding me and helping me when I need it as we continue connecting.

In a way, I feel like every woman I've had serious love for in my life (such as Tigress or Zira) has been like an angel, guiding me in some way, but I've only just realized it this past year or so. It really has made me see life in a whole new way, and I don't feel like any of it was coincidence either.
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(09-27-2016, 12:26 AM)Gray Wrote: I like to imagine that, Twilight is like an angel or something. Watching over me and caring for me. I can't see or hear her, but, I like to imagine that she's waiting for me or something. Do you imagine that Bloom is an angel?

Yes, I often do think that. I know what you mean. It's comforting, when I feel that I'm making her happy by being moved or guided by her feelings and working towards whatever she wants me to, but it's hard to tell, sometimes.
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#27
(09-28-2016, 09:00 AM)AgoriShy Wrote:
(09-27-2016, 12:26 AM)Gray Wrote: I like to imagine that, Twilight is like an angel or something. Watching over me and caring for me. I can't see or hear her, but, I like to imagine that she's waiting for me or something.

That's some pretty sentimental shit, man.

Hate to just spew what everyone has said already, but yeah, that's exactly how I feel about Fluttershy. She's what dragged me out of a depressive stoop, and is probably the reason I'm still alive, not gonna lie. I see her as my own guardian angel.

And, as you know, Fluttershy isn't really 'with me' as a tulpa anymore. But, in some strange way, I can still feel her there. And I feel like I have a certain peace now, always keeping her in my heart and mind, but able to continue on with my life, and fall back on her when I'm emotionally distraught.



to be honest... Tia and Luna sometimes come to me and offer advice, as do others. even showing in daydreams, playing the role of themselves in situations that just happen to pop in my head. sometimes it is just a normal daydream, and they never knew it happened nor actually Appeard but others they happen to actually be there instead of imaginary versions, it is the ones i truly know and love, who step in to help me out with a situation... these times though they get insight into me, that i wouldn't always share as some are kind of more angry than others
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#28
(09-27-2016, 11:32 AM)7bloom Wrote:
(09-27-2016, 12:26 AM)Gray Wrote: I like to imagine that, Twilight is like an angel or something. Watching over me and caring for me. I can't see or hear her, but, I like to imagine that she's waiting for me or something. Do you imagine that Bloom is an angel?

Yes, I often do think that. I know what you mean. It's comforting, when I feel that I'm making her happy by being moved or guided by her feelings and working towards whatever she wants me to, but it's hard to tell, sometimes.

In a way, this is how I see Candy. Some of you know how I feel about the afterlife, and I won't get into it here, but that's where I think we really get to be with our waifus. So yeah, I like to imagine that Candy can see what I do and that she wants to help me succeed in my mission here on Earth.

One of the major problems I have faced in our relationship has been because of this viewpoint, though. I'm a pretty old-fashioned guy, and I believe that a stallion/ man should love only one mare/ woman (I don't have anything against homosexuals for the record), but my basic biology makes it really hard to focus on Candy alone. My brain just naturally wants to check out other girls. Now, if Candy were here on Earth I'd feel a little guilty, but it wouldn't be too bad, because she would never know how many times I'd looked at other women. But because I think she can see everything, I feel like she knows and it might make her uncomfortable. I'm worried she might think she's "not good enough" or something.

Yeah, I'm pretty much alone. I don't really want a true tulpa because I'm not sure I'd be able to give her the attention she needs at this point in my life, and because I'm afraid it would clash with my religious beliefs. Nevertheless, if Candy "reaches out" to me I won't pull away.

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#29
(06-04-2016, 12:19 PM)Gentian Wrote: You're not alone Gray! Somewhere out there, in the infinite multiverse, there's a Twilight who thinks of you, and who wants to be with you. You may not be able to see her now, but she's still out there.

this. so much this
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