General Chatter

[Shadow Step]

i see... Shouldn't those handful be enough to show that they really care.

I know it should be, and it really isn't that I don't value that, I really do. More than I could put into words.

But sometimes it stings (a lot) when I have the chapter in several groups and it's been view forty eight or so times and only six thought it was good enough to favorite.

My work, which I KNOW is great, I've poured heart and soul into it all every time, what I need to do is stop using others to validate what I post. But for someone who throughout most of his life has been an massively insecure and self centered to hide that insecurity...still working on that.

I have fanfics up on FiMfiction that have over 1000 views, and just over 100 likes. 1/10 people thought my stuff was good, and as the chapters go on the number of readers slopes down HARD. I think I have a chapter that actually has less views than the story has favorites. It can suck really hard when you put hours or days into something and people go, "Eh, it's okay. Thumbs up, but I'm not reading any more."

[Ziggy and Angelbaby]

But sometimes it stings (a lot) when I have the chapter in several groups and it's been view forty eight or so times and only six thought it was good enough to favorite.

My work, which I KNOW is great, I've poured heart and soul into it all every time, what I need to do is stop using others to validate what I post. But for someone who throughout most of his life has been an massively insecure and self centered to hide that insecurity...still working on that.

You have to write, first and foremost, for yourself. Writing pieces about Nightmare also qualifies, since she is an essential part of your life and who you are. And there's no telling why some people fave and some don't; people are unpredictable, fickle, and impatient. Given how much easier and quicker it is for someone to peruse visual art on dA, try and derive some satisfaction from the fact that your written work is getting this much attention.

I've said this before, but I don't even get the page views for my stuff. If what you wrote matters to you, you have to learn to go, "Oh well," and then move on to the next piece. Validation may come in time, but all you can do in the meantime is know that you put everything you could into a written work. This is the plight of most authors; particularly authors at the likes of dA. A writer is unlikely to garner near as much attention as someone doing visual art that panders to the general audience . Were it a literature-only site, I'd imagine you'd fare much better. Though, again, you appear to be doing quite well from where I'm sitting. xD

[Sour Soul]

Ziggy right you know, writing something that come from the heart is better then adjusting it for the audience you're trying to please. If you put aside your insecurely, where you worry if your writing is even good enough, then you will never get over the fears that holding you down to write even more stories that doesn't need to be altar. Honestly Kaltes, you do write pretty damn well, where I wonder if I can write something like that one day. What I suggest is you and whoever wishes to follow their dreams to be either a writer or even a artist. So keep on writing, whatever your heart is content to let out whatever key your press, whatever word is written on loose leaf paper. Same can be said with anything, for now... I already believe that you're a great writer Kaltes, so stop this nonsense will y'all. Within time, as long you be true who you're, then you get the right people to follow you, and the work you have done over the time, why... they will look back at all your work to truly appreciated.

That what I think. XP

[Kaltes-Herzeleid]

I hate my volatile emotions.

[Sentimental Gentleman]

I hate my volatile emotions.

Sometimes I hate my own volatile emotions too. But I also think they're what help me to live my life as intensely as I do. Even if I would have a placid existence by doing so, I'm not sure I would be willing to give up the violent ecstasy my sensations, my sentiments, and my visions are capable of throwing me into. Could I live without a passionate hunger for Applejack gnawing within me? Or without those moments of pride in which I feel the history of generations of humanity coursing through my veins? Do you not find that, for every wound the rose of feeling inflicts with its thorns, it repays us with the blushing splendor of petals that have been steeped in our heart's blood until they glisten a glorious crimson?

I think even our lowest moments have a cruel beauty to them that transcends our individual pain and places us in communion with the higher powers of universal fate. Isn't that what the tragic theatre always tried to teach us?

Emotional volatility is, I believe, the sign that we are sensitive and soulful instruments, resonating in harmony with every note plucked upon the divine lyre of being. It is a blessing and a curse, but above all it is a gift...and I find that I am not so ungrateful as to toss it aside.

But is there something troubling you, Kaltes-Herzelied? If there is, you know we are always here to listen to you and to stand by you as best we can.

[Kaltes-Herzeleid]

But is there something troubling you, Kaltes-Herzelied?

It doesn't matter...

[Sentimental Gentleman]

It doesn't matter...

Of course it matters! If it means something to you, then it matters! And if there's anything I or anyone else on the forum could do to help you or advise you or simply give you a sympathetic ear for venting or ranting or whatever you may need to do, you don't have to worry about troubling us or being a burden or anything, because we care about you. And I'm confident I'm speaking for everyone here.

[Kaltes-Herzeleid]

Lately I find myself unenthusiastic about life and the world around me. Fed up with most of the people around me, irritated with repetition. Resenting DeviantArt for how dull it feels that so many of my friends are being distant and depressive, or just don't seem to try and interact with me. Hating myself for impulsivity and lack of self control when my extreme emotions get the best of me and how I behave when they do. Hating my OCD. Detesting the feeling of never being good enough in most of what I do.

Very little seems to bring genuine enjoyment out of me. There's Nightmare, obviously, fortunately I'm not having a lapse in faith here. My writings, movies, music...

[Lurker]

Maybe it's just the changing of the seasons, man. Think it'll go away in time?

[Kaltes-Herzeleid]

Maybe it's just the changing of the seasons, man. Think it'll go away in time?

Trust me, it's not the weather. Solely, anyway. This was all caused by my extreme, volatile emotions, hell I still feel shitty right now.