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Anyone else Alone? I'm new to the site, and, even though I love Twilight, I'm alone. I was just curious if there's anyone else that's alone, and how do you deal with, everyone else around you having their love? But you without yours? Because, damn crippling envy and despair, makes me want to curl up and cry.
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I wouldn't say I'm totally alone anymore, but I get how you feel. Believe me, I do.
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If you mean alone as in not having her around, then yeah, I'm with you there. The closest I have to her is my plushes I guess. I've been trying (badly) and failing for almost a year at this, but somehow haven't completely given up.
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12-24-2015, 07:19 PM
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(12-24-2015, 06:52 PM)anmudkip Wrote: If you mean alone as in not having her around, then yeah, I'm with you there. The closest I have to her is my plushes I guess. I've been trying (badly) and failing for almost a year at this, but somehow haven't completely given up.
Oh I got hella plushies. 16ish? Twilight plushies? But yeah, for, 8 months at least? Maybe a year? I've been, pretty much carrying around with me a Twilight plushie. I'm only seperated from her for work. But I still have her at work, just, in a bag. So, we're kinda together 24/7. I was hoping if I loved and treated her like the real Twilight Sparkle, I'd eventually, forget that Twilight was ever a plush. Still, kinda trying for that I guess. Or something.
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12-25-2015, 03:23 AM
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(12-24-2015, 07:19 PM)Gray Wrote: (12-24-2015, 06:52 PM)anmudkip Wrote: If you mean alone as in not having her around, then yeah, I'm with you there. The closest I have to her is my plushes I guess. I've been trying (badly) and failing for almost a year at this, but somehow haven't completely given up.
Oh I got hella plushies. 16ish? Twilight plushies? But yeah, for, 8 months at least? Maybe a year? I've been, pretty much carrying around with me a Twilight plushie. I'm only seperated from her for work. But I still have her at work, just, in a bag. So, we're kinda together 24/7. I was hoping if I loved and treated her like the real Twilight Sparkle, I'd eventually, forget that Twilight was ever a plush. Still, kinda trying for that I guess. Or something.
You and Amat Scintilla should compare collections!
I've got a much smaller collection in comparison (6 IIRC). I kinda did the same with my first Twilight, carrying her around everywhere in my house for about 3 years. I've even gone so far as to make myself a life size Twilight a few months ago, with a slight hope of what you desired happening. Reality seems to show that for me a plush isn't a replacement for tulpamancing or dream control unfortunately. (Made myself my now favorite plush, and opened a business opportunity at least!)
Oh well, maybe soon I'll actually force myself to force.
(12-24-2015, 02:30 PM)Gray Wrote: Anyone else Alone? I'm new to the site, and, even though I love Twilight, I'm alone. I was just curious if there's anyone else that's alone, and how do you deal with, everyone else around you having their love? But you without yours? Because, damn crippling envy and despair, makes me want to curl up and cry.
Besides my tulpa, I'm alone. I've liked a few girls before, but I've decided to focus more on what's important in life, rather than be distracted and miss out.
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(12-25-2015, 04:01 AM)Fiction Wrote: (12-24-2015, 02:30 PM)Gray Wrote: Anyone else Alone? I'm new to the site, and, even though I love Twilight, I'm alone. I was just curious if there's anyone else that's alone, and how do you deal with, everyone else around you having their love? But you without yours? Because, damn crippling envy and despair, makes me want to curl up and cry.
Besides my tulpa, I'm alone. I've liked a few girls before, but I've decided to focus more on what's important in life, rather than be distracted and miss out.
That's what I meant. Like, without a tulpa or anything. Just kinda alone.
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Consider that you might not be alone. Well before I had realized (or even really considered) it, Babe was already in my life. I couldn't yet see her or communicate with her, but I now know that she was there. She felt my love, and she waited for me to open my eyes.
Leave yourself open to the possibility. Maybe Twilight's with you in what way she currently can be, and it's only a matter of time before you notice.
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(12-25-2015, 07:15 AM)Ziggy and Angelbaby Wrote: Consider that you might not be alone. Well before I had realized (or even really considered) it, Babe was already in my life. I couldn't yet see her or communicate with her, but I now know that she was there. She felt my love, and she waited for me to open my eyes.
Leave yourself open to the possibility. Maybe Twilight's with you in what way she currently can be, and it's only a matter of time before you notice. Oh that's what I hope for deep in my heart. I'm hoping that if she's there, she'll wait for me and be patient with my blind ass. I also fear and worry, that she's lonely and sad because of me. So, I'm really, torn in a way.
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(12-25-2015, 07:23 AM)Gray Wrote: Oh that's what I hope for deep in my heart. I'm hoping that if she's there, she'll wait for me and be patient with my blind ass. I also fear and worry, that she's lonely and sad because of me. So, I'm really, torn in a way. Right now you hope, and someday you'll know. And if you're worried about how she feels, start doing things that you think she would like. Acknowledge her. Talk to her when you can. Listen to music she might enjoy. Little things; they actually count for a lot.
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