01-12-2016, 11:03 AM
I figured that it might motivate me if I log my progress where people could actually see it. With that, this is my tulpa journal.
First off, I've actually tried this twice before, and failed for a couple of reasons:
The first time I tried, I decided I was doing it for the wrong reasons. I was, mentally, in a pretty bad place then, and was trying to create somebody who could fix me. Research on the subject revealed that this was a pretty shitty idea, so I stopped and started seeing a therapist.
The second time I started, I dispensed with the notion that I was making somebody to fix me, but I ultimately didn't give the process the time and attention it needed. This is because I'm an undisciplined and easily distracted person.
It's been about a year since my last attempt. Before I start in earnest, I've started to practice meditation to improve my mental discipline, so that I can actually follow through with the process. I've also decided to completely stop playing video games, as they chew up way too much of my life. I want to significantly improve my discipline and focus before I start seriously forcing, as I don't want to get frustrated and stop like the last times. I do some visualizing, but nothing like personality or narration yet.
So that's it for now, the beginning of a new journey. I'll update as I make progress or have anything interesting to add.
P.S.
I'm basing my tulpa on an anthropomorphic Zecora, if you're curious.
First off, I've actually tried this twice before, and failed for a couple of reasons:
The first time I tried, I decided I was doing it for the wrong reasons. I was, mentally, in a pretty bad place then, and was trying to create somebody who could fix me. Research on the subject revealed that this was a pretty shitty idea, so I stopped and started seeing a therapist.
The second time I started, I dispensed with the notion that I was making somebody to fix me, but I ultimately didn't give the process the time and attention it needed. This is because I'm an undisciplined and easily distracted person.
It's been about a year since my last attempt. Before I start in earnest, I've started to practice meditation to improve my mental discipline, so that I can actually follow through with the process. I've also decided to completely stop playing video games, as they chew up way too much of my life. I want to significantly improve my discipline and focus before I start seriously forcing, as I don't want to get frustrated and stop like the last times. I do some visualizing, but nothing like personality or narration yet.
So that's it for now, the beginning of a new journey. I'll update as I make progress or have anything interesting to add.
P.S.
I'm basing my tulpa on an anthropomorphic Zecora, if you're curious.
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