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[Kaltes-Herzeleid]

I genuinely hate the...ideas my mind comes up with when I'm upset.

I don't necessarily know if this relates at all to what you said, but...

If I'm angry and frustrated enough, I will have persistent violent thoughts. Thoughts that aren't always easy to get rid of. But they're just that: Thoughts. I'd never actually hurt anyone, and I've long since come to recognize them as a product of my condition. Babe has also helped me put down these unwanted thoughts; no one and nothing diffuses me quite the way she can and does.

I'd rather not go into full detail, but whenever I'm seriously angry my mind starts thinking bad things towards myself.