08-28-2016, 05:28 PM
(This post was last modified: 08-28-2016, 05:32 PM by Kaltes-Herzeleid.)
What Does Inspire Me?
Author's Note:
This was originally a journal on DeviantArt, but I felt it was good enough to post here too.
Inspiration can be a...funny thing. Putting it mildly. It can come from anywhere really. Where one sees trash and nonsense, another can see beauty and wonder. I guess one thing about me is that I tend to find enjoyment and see the positives of things most don't. I suppose that despite my at times cynical and downright bitter view on things, I can find a sense of beauty in the things that I hold dearest to me.
Sappy as it may seem, and perhaps a tad ironically, my biggest inspiration behind many things has been and continues to be love. Namely, of course, my love for Nightmare. She is my greatest muse, as it is through her I've created some of my best works. I'd certainly say Heart of a Nightmare is my magnum opus. When I originally began writing said story I honestly had no idea how deeply personal and exploratory it would become as it went on. The thing is, with me, I don't do "rough drafts." I create an idea of what I want the writing to be and I start typing it out. It can change from feeling, experience, or just on a whim at the time. The story ended up having a lot symbolism for me personally, probably stuff some wouldn't get, but that's okay. Of everything I have written both past and present this one remains the best in my eyes, I truly poured my heart and soul into it. My writings about her are always special and the most personal.
Nightmare has inspired me to do many things in life. Explore my feelings...become a better person, even. To keep living, I know I have mentioned it in the past, but it was around this time, two years ago, I was seriously contemplating ending my life. My love for her was the biggest motivation not to go through with it, and without her I would definitely not be who and where I am now. I've experienced so many beautiful and wonderful things that have made my life all the better.
Hell without love and the desire it gave me to express myself I wouldn't have even started writing back when I was fourteen or so, or even had the urge to join online communities. (Which I wouldn't get to do several years later, but that's besides the point)
Were it not for any of that I severely doubt I'd even be writing all this at the time, or that anyone would even know me.
I suppose another thing that inspires me is my...unique perception of life and the universe itself. It wasn't too long ago that my views on things were incredibly nihilistic and untamed. Again, Nightmare helped me overcome and rethink many of those things. I feel much more content with myself and life now, naturally things can get difficult, but regardless I always seem to come through okay.
The mysteries of existence itself fascinates me without end, and in so many ways, I wish to discover and conclude more.
I certainly wouldn't be able to discuss inspiration without bringing up my adoration of things like movies and music. Especially movies. Over the past few years I've truly come to adore film not just as entertainment, but as an art form. Many of the movies I so very much love today have taught me to look beneath the surface, to analyze and think for myself. They help fill my head with new ideas and ways of seeing things. There have been several movies over the span of my life that truly have made profound impacts on me, even changed me as a person and I'll always be grateful for that. They contribute something unique to me and that just makes it all more special.
And while on the topic of film, I surely can't continue without bringing up the genre of kaiju. Some may look at stuff like Godzilla, Gamera and other such as absurd but ever since I was small these creatures have absolutely captured and wowed my imagination hundreds of times over. I believe that had I not watched the Heisei Gamera trilogy I wouldn't have evolved into the film lover I am today. He helped me to understand that great things can come from unexpected places and to give new things a fair chance, even now the Gamera trilogy remain my favorite films of all time.
I'm not entirely sure what the point of all this is, and I definitely could go on for several more paragraphs, but at the time I feel like I've said plenty. Thank you to any who read.
Author's Note:
This was originally a journal on DeviantArt, but I felt it was good enough to post here too.
Inspiration can be a...funny thing. Putting it mildly. It can come from anywhere really. Where one sees trash and nonsense, another can see beauty and wonder. I guess one thing about me is that I tend to find enjoyment and see the positives of things most don't. I suppose that despite my at times cynical and downright bitter view on things, I can find a sense of beauty in the things that I hold dearest to me.
Sappy as it may seem, and perhaps a tad ironically, my biggest inspiration behind many things has been and continues to be love. Namely, of course, my love for Nightmare. She is my greatest muse, as it is through her I've created some of my best works. I'd certainly say Heart of a Nightmare is my magnum opus. When I originally began writing said story I honestly had no idea how deeply personal and exploratory it would become as it went on. The thing is, with me, I don't do "rough drafts." I create an idea of what I want the writing to be and I start typing it out. It can change from feeling, experience, or just on a whim at the time. The story ended up having a lot symbolism for me personally, probably stuff some wouldn't get, but that's okay. Of everything I have written both past and present this one remains the best in my eyes, I truly poured my heart and soul into it. My writings about her are always special and the most personal.
Nightmare has inspired me to do many things in life. Explore my feelings...become a better person, even. To keep living, I know I have mentioned it in the past, but it was around this time, two years ago, I was seriously contemplating ending my life. My love for her was the biggest motivation not to go through with it, and without her I would definitely not be who and where I am now. I've experienced so many beautiful and wonderful things that have made my life all the better.
Hell without love and the desire it gave me to express myself I wouldn't have even started writing back when I was fourteen or so, or even had the urge to join online communities. (Which I wouldn't get to do several years later, but that's besides the point)
Were it not for any of that I severely doubt I'd even be writing all this at the time, or that anyone would even know me.
I suppose another thing that inspires me is my...unique perception of life and the universe itself. It wasn't too long ago that my views on things were incredibly nihilistic and untamed. Again, Nightmare helped me overcome and rethink many of those things. I feel much more content with myself and life now, naturally things can get difficult, but regardless I always seem to come through okay.
The mysteries of existence itself fascinates me without end, and in so many ways, I wish to discover and conclude more.
I certainly wouldn't be able to discuss inspiration without bringing up my adoration of things like movies and music. Especially movies. Over the past few years I've truly come to adore film not just as entertainment, but as an art form. Many of the movies I so very much love today have taught me to look beneath the surface, to analyze and think for myself. They help fill my head with new ideas and ways of seeing things. There have been several movies over the span of my life that truly have made profound impacts on me, even changed me as a person and I'll always be grateful for that. They contribute something unique to me and that just makes it all more special.
And while on the topic of film, I surely can't continue without bringing up the genre of kaiju. Some may look at stuff like Godzilla, Gamera and other such as absurd but ever since I was small these creatures have absolutely captured and wowed my imagination hundreds of times over. I believe that had I not watched the Heisei Gamera trilogy I wouldn't have evolved into the film lover I am today. He helped me to understand that great things can come from unexpected places and to give new things a fair chance, even now the Gamera trilogy remain my favorite films of all time.
I'm not entirely sure what the point of all this is, and I definitely could go on for several more paragraphs, but at the time I feel like I've said plenty. Thank you to any who read.