09-28-2016, 03:32 PM
(09-27-2016, 11:32 AM)7bloom Wrote:(09-27-2016, 12:26 AM)Gray Wrote: I like to imagine that, Twilight is like an angel or something. Watching over me and caring for me. I can't see or hear her, but, I like to imagine that she's waiting for me or something. Do you imagine that Bloom is an angel?
Yes, I often do think that. I know what you mean. It's comforting, when I feel that I'm making her happy by being moved or guided by her feelings and working towards whatever she wants me to, but it's hard to tell, sometimes.
In a way, this is how I see Candy. Some of you know how I feel about the afterlife, and I won't get into it here, but that's where I think we really get to be with our waifus. So yeah, I like to imagine that Candy can see what I do and that she wants to help me succeed in my mission here on Earth.
One of the major problems I have faced in our relationship has been because of this viewpoint, though. I'm a pretty old-fashioned guy, and I believe that a stallion/ man should love only one mare/ woman (I don't have anything against homosexuals for the record), but my basic biology makes it really hard to focus on Candy alone. My brain just naturally wants to check out other girls. Now, if Candy were here on Earth I'd feel a little guilty, but it wouldn't be too bad, because she would never know how many times I'd looked at other women. But because I think she can see everything, I feel like she knows and it might make her uncomfortable. I'm worried she might think she's "not good enough" or something.
Yeah, I'm pretty much alone. I don't really want a true tulpa because I'm not sure I'd be able to give her the attention she needs at this point in my life, and because I'm afraid it would clash with my religious beliefs. Nevertheless, if Candy "reaches out" to me I won't pull away.
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