05-02-2017, 08:22 AM
I understand it. Honest openness is very important, and I'd say the most important point of this forum, being able to explore and express your thoughts and feelings without ridicule. Any acceptance gained through deception isn't any acceptance at all, and it's never too late for that to be understood.
That bit about thinking you look indecisive, I understand that feeling well, but it's wrong. There should be no shame in exploring and really thinking about how you feel, as deeply and thoroughly as needed to become comfortable and secure in it. Anyone who wouldn't understand what you've gone through as well as someone who has struggled with similar feelings may would at least accept it and hope for the best for you.
That bit about thinking you look indecisive, I understand that feeling well, but it's wrong. There should be no shame in exploring and really thinking about how you feel, as deeply and thoroughly as needed to become comfortable and secure in it. Anyone who wouldn't understand what you've gone through as well as someone who has struggled with similar feelings may would at least accept it and hope for the best for you.