Feelings of Disconnection

[whobawhats]

Okay I think I should join in on this too even though I really hadn't wanted to say anything publicly. I don't know I hope it can help.

Since early this summer I've fealt as if I was getting more distant with starlight than what I had been with her in the past with it really peaking for me about a week ago. I think I can atleast trace it back to a source of just being constantly stressed, angry, and being thrown into loops of depression unlike anything I've dealt with in quite awhile. That's just really had its toll on me in general and I know that's gotten in the way of me wanting to just feel closer with her. It's gotten hard for me just to have at the very least simple happy thoughts about us and it's killing me. I think I finally have my root issues under control atleast, but I know what I have to focus on next. I've been doing a bit of the same as rares in that I'll just remove myself from everything for an hour or 2 and just do nothing but focus 110% on her. Usually I'll watch a few eps look at some pictures and just sit and think about her. I'm finding that to be incredibly helpful and I may try drawing again since it's been awhile since the last I did it.

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Idk, I feel as if I've just really let her down and want nothing more than to fix it.