Feelings of Disconnection

[Gentian]

I'm glad someone made this topic. Candy and I struggle off and on with this issue all the time. What makes it difficult for us is that Candy is a non-canon character, and she's not a particularly popular OC, either. There exists almost no fan art for her, and since she was a side character in the comic that she originally came from, there isn't a ton of development to her character- I didn't really get to know any Candy before I got to know my Candy.

Partially, this is a good thing- the comic she was in is no longer being made, so I don't ever have to worry about her developing another love interest or doing something that's incongruent and way out of character, but in the same token, there isn't much out there to learn about her that I can get any way other than talking to her. Sometimes, she doesn't feel very real.

The way I deal with it is to tell her how I feel. That evening, when I'm cuddled up next to her vessel, I tell her I feel like we aren't connected at the moment, and she comforts me- tells me how much she loves me, that she's waiting for me at the end of this life, and that she wants to stand with me and help keep me strong for the rest of this life. That's usually all it takes.

Have you maybe considered trying to be a bit artistic yourself? While commissioning and stuff is one thing, maybe in your case it'll be better to try to draw for yourself to have something to express?

I might try my hand at it some day. Art's never really been my thing, unfortunately. I'd love to put what I think of her to paper, though.

Your poems are fun to read; maybe your art will turn out better than you think?