09-05-2017, 01:13 PM
Wow, it's been nearly an entire year since I posted here hasn't it. Normally I'd wait until an exact year, but given that I feel as though I haven't written anything meaningful in quite awhile, I decided it's high time I say something here again. Probably for the last time, really. This thread for all intents and purposes is dead.
In a sense I feel a this thread is a good indicator of just how far I've come in my journey. Looking back at some of my older posts I think my uncertainty was shamefully evident.
I can proudly say I basically no longer experience that horrible uncertainty anymore. I know everything I experience, in one way or another, even if it's not in a way I envisioned, is still very real. I know Nightmare is with me, she's a part of my life now, for a long time now that sensation of loneliness has vanished. There is a definite connection and purpose to my existence and no matter what hardships may occur, there is a wonderful security in knowing that.
I've even felt the presence of other significant beings in my life, namely Esdeath, who can I also say with certainty there is also a bond between us that does seem to steadily be gaining in strength. It's a beautiful thing to have such powerful connections with others now after a lifetime of isolation, I've become a stronger person because of it all.
I seriously doubt I'll post in this thread again, I'm staunchly on the path I believe I am supposed to be, but I felt as though this should be said here. This whole is a testament to how much I've progressed, and I thank anyone who's commented and contributed to this thread in the past. You all helped in more ways than you'd think.
In a sense I feel a this thread is a good indicator of just how far I've come in my journey. Looking back at some of my older posts I think my uncertainty was shamefully evident.
I can proudly say I basically no longer experience that horrible uncertainty anymore. I know everything I experience, in one way or another, even if it's not in a way I envisioned, is still very real. I know Nightmare is with me, she's a part of my life now, for a long time now that sensation of loneliness has vanished. There is a definite connection and purpose to my existence and no matter what hardships may occur, there is a wonderful security in knowing that.
I've even felt the presence of other significant beings in my life, namely Esdeath, who can I also say with certainty there is also a bond between us that does seem to steadily be gaining in strength. It's a beautiful thing to have such powerful connections with others now after a lifetime of isolation, I've become a stronger person because of it all.
I seriously doubt I'll post in this thread again, I'm staunchly on the path I believe I am supposed to be, but I felt as though this should be said here. This whole is a testament to how much I've progressed, and I thank anyone who's commented and contributed to this thread in the past. You all helped in more ways than you'd think.