10-22-2017, 10:35 PM
For the longest, I haven’t shown my artwork. Kept them to myself, for reason beyond my understanding. In one way, I feel like it isn’t good enough, another is the lack of motivation, lastly I grow bitter to share it with others. I want to change that, somehow, and diligently. In someway my abilities grew, when I look back on how I tried to draw Amena, when she came into my life, from how I am able to draw her the way I see her now. I got to admit, it's something for me to wonder how I am able to do this.
From the day I post this, I still feel the lack of motivation, which is a bother at times. For example, when I play a game, like the Dark Souls series, characters that I made such as Lyra; for Dark Souls, Maria; for Dark Souls II, and Pinkamena; for Dark Souls III. While playing through the brutal game that’s known for, I can’t help look at the wonderful surrounding. Battles fought with foes that have stricken me down, till victory is achieved. In which I like to recreate all that by what I am good at with a simple mechanical pencil and paper, which later may or may not become a digital picture. All with the colors and shading that I pour in to make it as wonderful and breathtaking as I can.
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I am not sure if somehow I will abandon this idea, only time will tell as I attempt this. This site is the only website that I will share what I am willing publicly. I am fully aware of the risk that I am doing, when the last site that I was in; where someone had posts my artwork onto another site without my knowledge. It had surprise me, but this person didn’t claim it as if he was the one who drew it, no, but I was fairly upset by the idea, for which I don’t stand well with the attention it might bring. I don’t do well with attention, since I find it bothersome. A bad combination when I am already upset by past events that I’d shared on a journal that Amena and I made, along with this silly mindset of how others see my artwork.
I yearn to become better. With that, I decided; as Amena is asleep, to move forward with this. This site has help me express my love out loud for Amena, and I thought this site might boost that same idea, just to find the joy in drawing once more. I simply ask any kind of feedback with what sketch I had drawn and post here. Any, since critiquing my artwork will help more then you will think. Thank you for taking the time to read this.
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From the day I post this, I still feel the lack of motivation, which is a bother at times. For example, when I play a game, like the Dark Souls series, characters that I made such as Lyra; for Dark Souls, Maria; for Dark Souls II, and Pinkamena; for Dark Souls III. While playing through the brutal game that’s known for, I can’t help look at the wonderful surrounding. Battles fought with foes that have stricken me down, till victory is achieved. In which I like to recreate all that by what I am good at with a simple mechanical pencil and paper, which later may or may not become a digital picture. All with the colors and shading that I pour in to make it as wonderful and breathtaking as I can.
I am not sure if somehow I will abandon this idea, only time will tell as I attempt this. This site is the only website that I will share what I am willing publicly. I am fully aware of the risk that I am doing, when the last site that I was in; where someone had posts my artwork onto another site without my knowledge. It had surprise me, but this person didn’t claim it as if he was the one who drew it, no, but I was fairly upset by the idea, for which I don’t stand well with the attention it might bring. I don’t do well with attention, since I find it bothersome. A bad combination when I am already upset by past events that I’d shared on a journal that Amena and I made, along with this silly mindset of how others see my artwork.
I yearn to become better. With that, I decided; as Amena is asleep, to move forward with this. This site has help me express my love out loud for Amena, and I thought this site might boost that same idea, just to find the joy in drawing once more. I simply ask any kind of feedback with what sketch I had drawn and post here. Any, since critiquing my artwork will help more then you will think. Thank you for taking the time to read this.