Tulpamancy and Waifus

[Gray]

Waifu is someone I love romantically and care about, but they're not "real" or "here".

Understood, which is why I don't see Amena as a waifu by the meaning of "waifu" means to you, Gray.

So [I] substitute her absence with stuffed plush. Give the plush affection, and [I] try my best to imagine reactions from the plush, as if Twilight was the plush or whatever.

Question, are the reactions you imagine, force? Or what do you mean "... try my best to imagine reactions from the plush,"

Long ago, originally got big life size Twilight plush to serve as crutch in tulpa formation, was having trouble imagining everything necessary. Ended up falling in love with the plush instead and giving up on tulpamancy. That help, or nah?

(Sigh) How do I go without sounding mean? From my knowledge, it sounds like more in the line of Plushophilia. Since I don’t know you, Gray, or the relationship status with your Twilight Sparkle, I will ask you this, Gray. How do you see yourself with her at this time?

The reactions I'm imagining, I dunno if I'm forcing or not? Usually just simple little things, imagining her giggling at YouTube videos, or being tired when it's late at night, sometimes pretending I hear her yawning or asking if it's bedtime yet. Just, whatever I think she'd be feeling? I dunno. Probably fits the definition of forcing?




How do I see myself with her at this time? What do you mean? I dunno. I love her and see her as my marefriend, even if the relationship is kinda, one sided? Plushophilia, yeah, that kinda describes me? Always liked stuffed animals, but never had romantic or sexual interest until Twilight plushies, but I'm attracted to her because she's Twilight. Not because she's plush.