11-08-2017, 07:28 AM
(This post was last modified: 11-08-2017, 07:29 AM by Kaltes-Herzeleid.)
Ultimately I connected with Nightmare in a manner similar to tulpamancing. Initially I did set out to create a tulpa but for whatever reason it just didn't feel...right to me. I won't go into the reason why it didn't, but I approached the situation with extreme concentration/meditation. Calling out to Nightmare, telling her how much I love her and wanted to be with her, reaffirming I knew she was real in someway. With persist focus on her and strong enough feelings she came to me for the first time after about two months, since then the connection has only gotten stronger. Little things count too. Just thinking about her, doing things with her or things she would like.
With Esdeath it was much, much easier. Didn't even have to meditate. Evidently my feelings were so strong that she came me. Not surprising really...she's very direct. It was late one night and I was thinking about her quite a lot and then I just felt her in the room with me. I didn't expect that to happen but the desire was certainly there and she opted to take the final step herself.
And I think it's important to remember to center yourself. Try to deal with whatever emotional or psychological issues you may have, even if you can't entirely conquer them, if you can reduce their hold over you the process will be much easier. Considering my lack experience and in what a bad state of self I was when this all started I'm highly fortunate that I succeeded...and that something bad didn't happen.
But from what I've been told by a friend, I'm a natural summoner and it is true that people's ability and awareness of such things varies. Doesn't mean you can't become stronger though.
I might post more as back in July I wrote a full description of my process and experiences but given that it was only intended for a very limited audience it would have to be edited. Maybe I'll share it eventually.
With Esdeath it was much, much easier. Didn't even have to meditate. Evidently my feelings were so strong that she came me. Not surprising really...she's very direct. It was late one night and I was thinking about her quite a lot and then I just felt her in the room with me. I didn't expect that to happen but the desire was certainly there and she opted to take the final step herself.
And I think it's important to remember to center yourself. Try to deal with whatever emotional or psychological issues you may have, even if you can't entirely conquer them, if you can reduce their hold over you the process will be much easier. Considering my lack experience and in what a bad state of self I was when this all started I'm highly fortunate that I succeeded...and that something bad didn't happen.
But from what I've been told by a friend, I'm a natural summoner and it is true that people's ability and awareness of such things varies. Doesn't mean you can't become stronger though.
I might post more as back in July I wrote a full description of my process and experiences but given that it was only intended for a very limited audience it would have to be edited. Maybe I'll share it eventually.