Tulpamancy and Waifus

[Kaltes-Herzeleid]

Dunno. I don't wanna be making something out of nothing, getting hopes up and whatnot.

If it feels worth noting, it's worth noting. It's important to be observant, especially in the first months. You never know what might be a sign that she's here.

During the breathing exercises, was counting "one Mississippi, two Mississippi, ect" but got wise idea to count "one Twilight, Two Twilight". Around beginning of counting Twilights, felt really relaxed and at ease, felt something, though dunno if it was a slight dip into sleep or whatever. Felt like a dip or bump. Dunno. I don't wanna be making something out of nothing, getting hopes up and whatnot.

It's great that you were able to get yourself so relaxed in such a relatively short period time, and in your first attempt in quite sometime. If you think that's a good method to keep using, you should. When I first started meditating I paced around my room whilst concentrating since I found I was able to focus better while moving (of course I had to pick a specific path so as not to bump into anything). Don't worry about falling asleep too much, it's happened to pretty much anyone who's meditated at one point or another.