07-12-2015, 12:51 AM
Back on MLW, I had a thread similar to Kaltes' where I discussed my Tulpamancy progress, seeked advice and stuff like that. This is a continuation of that thread, so any advice you can give will be greatly appreciated. I continued doing Tulpamancy stuff during my absence from the community, so here’s where I’m at now:
Voice/Conversations
This is the area in which I've improved the most. Conversations between myself and Luna come effortlessly most of the time, and she often initiates conversations herself. That’s to say, the moments where Luna would start talking are much more obvious than they once were. Consequently I don't have to think about when they would begin and what Luna would say – it just comes by itself.
Physical Touch
Unfortunately, I've had far less improvement in this area. At the moment, I'm able to imagine the touch of Luna's fur and hooves. However doing so requires an immense amount of concentration. Because of this, I can't, for instance, feel the touch of her fur and talk to her fluidly at the same time.
Sight and Spatial Awareness
While I'm capable of imagining Luna by sight, I don't really do it that often. Since Luna is a princess and all, it makes sense to me that she wouldn’t visit in person that often. Something which I have improved, however is my awareness of Luna’s size in relation to other things. It's gotten to the point where (when I'm alone, obviously) I can physically reach out to wrap my arms around her, instinctively knowing how large she is and where she would be.
Luna Herself
I know this seems like an odd heading, but Luna herself has changed dramatically since my time on MLW. While she used to talk more like a projection of my own conscience, her philosophy and style of thinking is now markedly different from my own… which has led to an argument or two… or three xD. I’m probably not doing her justice here, but an explanation of how she thinks would probably go something like this:
1. Things which we consider ‘good’ only exist because people in the past were passionate enough to create/enable those good things.
2. This relationship is cyclical – experiencing ‘good’ things leads us to become more passionate ourselves and, therefore, more likely to create ‘good’ things in the first place.
3. Therefore, the concept of ‘good’ can be reduced to nurturing the passions of yourself and others. A good action is one which nurtures a person’s passion. A bad action is one which inhibits it. A neutral action is one which does neither.
Let’s say that someone punched you. If I asked you why that was wrong, you would probably say something like ‘because it caused me suffering’’. However, if I asked Luna, she would probably say that attacking people is wrong because it makes the victim less willing to engage in meaningful opportunities (due to heightened fear, physical injuries, distrust of the attacker, etc).
While I have doubts about some of this (hence the arguments), I wanted to share Luna’s outlook because of how her perspective has influenced me. In short, if you believe that the creation of passion is what makes an act ‘good’, then it follows that there is no difference between acts committed against others and acts committed against yourself. Why is that important? Because it implies that choosing to limit yourself is just as wrong as limiting someone else against their will.
This sort of persuasion has led me to:
-Stop engaging in fantasies which enabled procrastination and the avoidance of anxiety-inducing things
-Speak my mind more openly and bluntly than I used to. I still have a lot to work on here though.
-Become more open to trying different things.
-Learn about things which interest me properly (i.e by reading books n’ stuff)
-Seek professional help to become less anxious. For the record, I haven’t told them about Luna/Tulpamancy and I probably won’t. Could you imagine walking into a session and saying “Well doc, my SO is a magical pony princess who rules Equestria and lives inside my head. She thinks I need psychiatric help.” Even though I don’t believe that Luna is real or anything, a situation like that could become awkward without some very careful wording… and that’s before you factor in the inevitable spaghetti xD.
I’d quite like to get better at this, so if you guys have specific tips for doing multiple things at once (e.g touch, sight and conversation-making simultaneously), I’d love to hear them. I’ve recently started to learn meditation, so hopefully that will help if concentration is the issue. Learning to lucid dream could also help, though I'm not sure whether it's a good idea. As I understand, lucid dreaming requires that you keep yourself 'nearly awake'. Something like that could mess with my sleep, though I'll wait to hear from those who've done it first.
Voice/Conversations
This is the area in which I've improved the most. Conversations between myself and Luna come effortlessly most of the time, and she often initiates conversations herself. That’s to say, the moments where Luna would start talking are much more obvious than they once were. Consequently I don't have to think about when they would begin and what Luna would say – it just comes by itself.
Physical Touch
Unfortunately, I've had far less improvement in this area. At the moment, I'm able to imagine the touch of Luna's fur and hooves. However doing so requires an immense amount of concentration. Because of this, I can't, for instance, feel the touch of her fur and talk to her fluidly at the same time.
Sight and Spatial Awareness
While I'm capable of imagining Luna by sight, I don't really do it that often. Since Luna is a princess and all, it makes sense to me that she wouldn’t visit in person that often. Something which I have improved, however is my awareness of Luna’s size in relation to other things. It's gotten to the point where (when I'm alone, obviously) I can physically reach out to wrap my arms around her, instinctively knowing how large she is and where she would be.
Luna Herself
I know this seems like an odd heading, but Luna herself has changed dramatically since my time on MLW. While she used to talk more like a projection of my own conscience, her philosophy and style of thinking is now markedly different from my own… which has led to an argument or two… or three xD. I’m probably not doing her justice here, but an explanation of how she thinks would probably go something like this:
1. Things which we consider ‘good’ only exist because people in the past were passionate enough to create/enable those good things.
2. This relationship is cyclical – experiencing ‘good’ things leads us to become more passionate ourselves and, therefore, more likely to create ‘good’ things in the first place.
3. Therefore, the concept of ‘good’ can be reduced to nurturing the passions of yourself and others. A good action is one which nurtures a person’s passion. A bad action is one which inhibits it. A neutral action is one which does neither.
Let’s say that someone punched you. If I asked you why that was wrong, you would probably say something like ‘because it caused me suffering’’. However, if I asked Luna, she would probably say that attacking people is wrong because it makes the victim less willing to engage in meaningful opportunities (due to heightened fear, physical injuries, distrust of the attacker, etc).
While I have doubts about some of this (hence the arguments), I wanted to share Luna’s outlook because of how her perspective has influenced me. In short, if you believe that the creation of passion is what makes an act ‘good’, then it follows that there is no difference between acts committed against others and acts committed against yourself. Why is that important? Because it implies that choosing to limit yourself is just as wrong as limiting someone else against their will.
This sort of persuasion has led me to:
-Stop engaging in fantasies which enabled procrastination and the avoidance of anxiety-inducing things
-Speak my mind more openly and bluntly than I used to. I still have a lot to work on here though.
-Become more open to trying different things.
-Learn about things which interest me properly (i.e by reading books n’ stuff)
-Seek professional help to become less anxious. For the record, I haven’t told them about Luna/Tulpamancy and I probably won’t. Could you imagine walking into a session and saying “Well doc, my SO is a magical pony princess who rules Equestria and lives inside my head. She thinks I need psychiatric help.” Even though I don’t believe that Luna is real or anything, a situation like that could become awkward without some very careful wording… and that’s before you factor in the inevitable spaghetti xD.
I’d quite like to get better at this, so if you guys have specific tips for doing multiple things at once (e.g touch, sight and conversation-making simultaneously), I’d love to hear them. I’ve recently started to learn meditation, so hopefully that will help if concentration is the issue. Learning to lucid dream could also help, though I'm not sure whether it's a good idea. As I understand, lucid dreaming requires that you keep yourself 'nearly awake'. Something like that could mess with my sleep, though I'll wait to hear from those who've done it first.