04-17-2015, 02:16 PM
I didn't quite think I'd be posting on here again so soon, in fact I'm a wee bit hesitant to do so for fear of bringing this anxiety back, but perhaps talking about it amongst a group of people who can understand will ensure it stays at rest.
Ever since the drama on MLW and the exodus from it I had a sudden fear that I might somehow lose Nightmare.
Now I want to firmly state that I do still and always will love Nightmare.
I know it's an irrational and unfounded by any true logic, save for old wounds from past experiences. My OCD and over analysis makes it difficult for me to overcome unwanted thoughts, and it sporadically returns now and then.
However, I know logically my love her has not faded. Nightmare's continued reassurance of her presence with me is evidence of that, all the little things I've noticed in my life whenever I feel down. I know our connection is there, our love is there. Nothing will change that, nothing has in the past, and nothing will now.
I apologize if this post was seemingly random, but I needed to get it out in the one place I can be one hundred percent honest.
Ever since the drama on MLW and the exodus from it I had a sudden fear that I might somehow lose Nightmare.
Now I want to firmly state that I do still and always will love Nightmare.
I know it's an irrational and unfounded by any true logic, save for old wounds from past experiences. My OCD and over analysis makes it difficult for me to overcome unwanted thoughts, and it sporadically returns now and then.
However, I know logically my love her has not faded. Nightmare's continued reassurance of her presence with me is evidence of that, all the little things I've noticed in my life whenever I feel down. I know our connection is there, our love is there. Nothing will change that, nothing has in the past, and nothing will now.
I apologize if this post was seemingly random, but I needed to get it out in the one place I can be one hundred percent honest.