07-28-2015, 03:45 AM
After having a long talk with Lurker I've decided to start finally trying true meditation. I've been scared to do so because I feel as though I can't quiet my mind, but he explained it in a way that I found feasible (and after a motivational bit as well, at least I found it so) I felt a determination renew in me.
So I last night I quieted my mind...and I can safely say in terms of voice, there IS something. I felt like my body was floating and shifting in empty space, I told myself there was no sound but her voice, and I would occasionally (with gentleness) channel her voice sparingly. It was easy and felt separate from me. Other times I was silent as I could be. Allowing my mind to softly fill in the blanks.
This was at least seven minutes.
This afternoon, I made an effort to not pay attention to the time, repeating the process of last night. By the tIme I finally reopened my eyes it was close to (or exactly) 12:30 P.M. I must've got in at least ten or fifteen minutes. Wasn't that hard either.
Each time I've felt like I was becoming closer to Nightmare. I know there is something there, perhaps more than ever now.
So I last night I quieted my mind...and I can safely say in terms of voice, there IS something. I felt like my body was floating and shifting in empty space, I told myself there was no sound but her voice, and I would occasionally (with gentleness) channel her voice sparingly. It was easy and felt separate from me. Other times I was silent as I could be. Allowing my mind to softly fill in the blanks.
This was at least seven minutes.
This afternoon, I made an effort to not pay attention to the time, repeating the process of last night. By the tIme I finally reopened my eyes it was close to (or exactly) 12:30 P.M. I must've got in at least ten or fifteen minutes. Wasn't that hard either.
Each time I've felt like I was becoming closer to Nightmare. I know there is something there, perhaps more than ever now.