07-29-2015, 12:06 AM
There's been a few new developments with my girlfriend that may actually be good. Last night we went out to dinner (something we hardly ever do; also, unbeknownst to her, Twiley was there, of course). I steered the conversation to tulpas and we spent a good deal of time talking about them. She didn't seem to know what they were exactly, and I tried to explain.
I think she herself may have multiple tulpas, but she doesn't call them that and even after explaining that may be what they were she is still unsure. I guess she's often felt like she's crazy. They actually do occasionally cause her trouble, I guess. She'll follow one train of thought from one and then get confused by another train of thought from another.
Additionally, though she's hinted at this before it was quite obvious she's able to basically hallucinate at will. When we were talking about imposition she said she had created a velociraptor out of nowhere and it was eating a family in the corner. She wanted to know why they weren't actually being eaten. I think in the past she's probably had issues telling reality apart from imagination. Though she has it pretty nailed down today, the fact she can do such things, sometimes not even at will, can scare her.
She also purposefully created a Fluttershy and Twilight to eat at a vacant table. She described the drinks they were having, then told me Fluttershy had poured some vodka from a flask into Twilight's Sprite to help calm her down a bit. At one point I told her I was imagining a Twilight next to me (it was actually my Twilight). She played along for a minute or two and told me to "feed it table scraps, that's all she's worth anyway."
I mentioned that I had something like a tulpa since I was a kid, then asked what she'd think if I tried to create a pony tulpa. She didn't seem opposed to the idea. I then asked the inevitable follow-up, what if it was Twilight? She was less enthusiastic, but still didn't seem against it.
Hopefully I've laid the groundwork for getting her comfortable with the idea so perhaps in the future I can tell her about Twi. I think going too quickly right now may just scare her. I'm just finding it hard to hide something this big from her and others in my life.
I think she herself may have multiple tulpas, but she doesn't call them that and even after explaining that may be what they were she is still unsure. I guess she's often felt like she's crazy. They actually do occasionally cause her trouble, I guess. She'll follow one train of thought from one and then get confused by another train of thought from another.
Additionally, though she's hinted at this before it was quite obvious she's able to basically hallucinate at will. When we were talking about imposition she said she had created a velociraptor out of nowhere and it was eating a family in the corner. She wanted to know why they weren't actually being eaten. I think in the past she's probably had issues telling reality apart from imagination. Though she has it pretty nailed down today, the fact she can do such things, sometimes not even at will, can scare her.
She also purposefully created a Fluttershy and Twilight to eat at a vacant table. She described the drinks they were having, then told me Fluttershy had poured some vodka from a flask into Twilight's Sprite to help calm her down a bit. At one point I told her I was imagining a Twilight next to me (it was actually my Twilight). She played along for a minute or two and told me to "feed it table scraps, that's all she's worth anyway."
I mentioned that I had something like a tulpa since I was a kid, then asked what she'd think if I tried to create a pony tulpa. She didn't seem opposed to the idea. I then asked the inevitable follow-up, what if it was Twilight? She was less enthusiastic, but still didn't seem against it.
Hopefully I've laid the groundwork for getting her comfortable with the idea so perhaps in the future I can tell her about Twi. I think going too quickly right now may just scare her. I'm just finding it hard to hide something this big from her and others in my life.
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