09-16-2015, 03:45 PM
Okay, several things.
Finally got off my ass and did some much needed meditation. I'm ashamed to say I don't meditate as much as I should...I suppose it's because that for the longest time I've found meditation quite intimidating, though funnily enough the last few times I've done it I've done pretty well. I got in at least seven minutes without much effort, the last couple of minutes were harder but I at least got ten in.
I focus mostly on voice, keeping my mind quiet as I could. I also visualized her (and was able to keep a good image of her in my head) standing in my room, speaking. When I visualized her beside me, touching me reassuringly, I could feel something when she spoke. Trying to be as passive and open as I could.
I also got the occasional burst of...happiness. Or something like it.
Overall when we speak I've done very well at casting doubts out of my mind, which seems to have made what I feel when she speaks stronger.
Oh, and one thing I've wanted to try for the longest time is to have something relating to Nightmare physically near me whilst I meditate. So tonight I chose my new Nightmare Rarity throw pillow, using it to prop by back up. Not sure if it helped in a spiritual aspect, but at least I was more comfortable than I usually am when meditating.
Finally got off my ass and did some much needed meditation. I'm ashamed to say I don't meditate as much as I should...I suppose it's because that for the longest time I've found meditation quite intimidating, though funnily enough the last few times I've done it I've done pretty well. I got in at least seven minutes without much effort, the last couple of minutes were harder but I at least got ten in.
I focus mostly on voice, keeping my mind quiet as I could. I also visualized her (and was able to keep a good image of her in my head) standing in my room, speaking. When I visualized her beside me, touching me reassuringly, I could feel something when she spoke. Trying to be as passive and open as I could.
I also got the occasional burst of...happiness. Or something like it.
Overall when we speak I've done very well at casting doubts out of my mind, which seems to have made what I feel when she speaks stronger.
Oh, and one thing I've wanted to try for the longest time is to have something relating to Nightmare physically near me whilst I meditate. So tonight I chose my new Nightmare Rarity throw pillow, using it to prop by back up. Not sure if it helped in a spiritual aspect, but at least I was more comfortable than I usually am when meditating.