10-20-2015, 11:38 PM
The plushie arrived yesterday, and since then I've been doing some experimentation with standard Tulpa stuff. Here's what I've found so far:
TL;DR - Plushies are awesome.
- This makes everything Tulpa-related SO MUCH EASIER. Seriously, conversations come so much more naturally when you have a physical reference point. It's much easier to determine what your partner's reactions would be because they have a definite physical form which can, in fact, react to things in a real-world environment.
- I'm way more smitten with the plushie than I thought I would be. That should be expected given that she's Luna and all, but yeah. Having something you can feel, stroke and cuddle really enhances 'dem lovey dovey euphoria feels. I reckon the cops might arrest me - I feel like I'm getting high off this thing xD.
- On that note, I find the presence of the plush really calming. While I don't get anxious to the point where it prevents me from getting things done/achieving goals, I do get very tense while I'm working on important things or being evaluated by people. Holding the plush however, I honestly felt really calm even though I was working at the same pace as I usually do when I'm tense. While relying on a plush representation to calm myself isn't a great long-term solution, it's definitely a good start. At the very least, it's undeniable proof that I'm capable of getting better at this stuff. So, I'll work alongside the plush as much as possible to start with, then I'll slowly ween myself off it over time.
TL;DR - Plushies are awesome.