Updates and Advice: Version 2.0

[Ziggy and Angelbaby]

Ever since the drama on MLW and the exodus from it I had a sudden fear that I might somehow lose Nightmare.

What Nightmare and you have is YOURS; it can't be taken away or undone. Though it developed while you were at MLW, it was you two who were responsible. Having a community like this one where it's possible to reach out to others who might better understand what you're going through is great. But the most essential component is something you already have: Love.

And on the downside today I found myself doubting as to whether or not I felt her touch...it took me a bit, but I was able to remind myself I had before, luckily no break down or overwhelming feelings of hopelessness.

It's okay to have moments like that. And, so far as concentration goes, Angelbabe sometimes has to remind me to relax. It's easiest for me to feel her touch if I'm not too caught up in keeping track of every little thing. Sometimes you just have to let go; let it happen. Slight pressure. A warm sensation. The feel of something sliding gently across your skin. Watch for those.

Do you touch Nightmare? I'll reach out and toss Rainbow's mane. Grab at her tail, playfully. Scratch her back. Maybe there's a simple way you can touch Nightmare. You can even close your eyes and just reach out to her. Though, for all I know, I could be suggesting things you've already done.