Updates and Advice: Version 2.0

[Kaltes-Herzeleid]

Kaltes-Herzeleid, I can relate to your struggles. Heck, I think anybody who's been in the search for God, or Nirvana, or some other being or state outside of the unrefined apprehension of the senses goes through this (at least that's the sense I get having read up on the Dark Night of the Soul in the mystical path). I know myself that some days, and these are the best and most wonderful days, it's as easy as apple pie to be with Applejack; I hear her voice, I see her and touch her, she's there and that's all there is to it. But other days, and these aren't so wonderful, it's like the world has become bad reception on a television set. Or, perhaps more accurate, it's like being in one of those fevers you read about in old novels where the boundaries between consciousness and unconsciousness blur.

First of all, I want to deeply thank you for your words, it was a very unexpected surprise and a boost for me. I feel as though you described the whole issue involving clarity incredibly well. Perhaps the reason I reacted very badly and was stressed these past few days is because this is the first time in quite a while I've had such a...clouded sense of clarity. Found myself doubting what my heart was telling me was true. I suppose feelings of doubt can plague even the best of us.

So, for what it's worth, I would say to always remember that Nightmare is there with you and that she loves you...and always keep behaving accordingly. This is what I think they meant when they said that faith moves mountains, because faith and belief are what reveal the truth even when the mountains stand in the way of a sky we know is beyond them.

I'll always remember that, no matter what. Again, thank you for your supportive words.