01-03-2016, 07:05 PM
(This post was last modified: 01-03-2016, 07:07 PM by Kaltes-Herzeleid.)
(01-03-2016, 06:41 PM)Kadae Wrote: But, that might just be easy for me to say.
My life has been filled with lies, betrayal, manipulation and control. Isolation. Intolerable feelings of inadequacy. The feeling of hate at just being alive and feeling like your anger and hate are crushing you from the inside. I've seen and felt the things I value and love get ripped away from me over and over again.
That ugliness comes back to slap me in the face. Hard. And I'm reminded just how angry I can be and resentment can just permeate from me.
I live in a world that will never like me or accept me.
So yeah, sometimes it hard for me to think there's beauty in anything in this world when all I felt was the horrendous ugliness of it.
I can barely even write the correct words because even then no one will understand. I could probably scream it until my lungs ruptured and my throat bled and that still wouldn't change a thing.