I woke up at 2:36 P.M.

I need to shave.

Opening to the first page of a brand new diary is such a crazy feeling, considering how much time I spent thinking of how near the end I was in my last one.

Being tired and wanting to write is a bad combination.

(10-19-2017, 04:59 PM)Kaltes-Herzeleid Wrote: Being tired and wanting to write is a bad combination.

That also applies when I want to draw. Heavily when I am working on the outline for cut crisp drawing.

I just dislike that the time that you really want to write or draw, is more often than not the time that you can't write or draw.

(10-20-2017, 03:16 AM)Rares Wrote: I just dislike that the time that you really want to write or draw, is more often than not the time that you can't write or draw.

Yup, completely this. I really wanted to start on something today, but just didn't end up having the time again. Oh well

I remember way back during the divorce, one of my mother's friends asked me how I was or how life was or something like that, and for once I opted to be honest and answered that it far from good and I was feeling terrible.

I will never forget the look of disgust I received.

(10-24-2017, 06:07 AM)Kaltes-Herzeleid Wrote: I remember way back during the divorce, one of my mother's friends asked me how I was or how life was or something like that, and for once I opted to be honest and answered that it far from good and I was feeling terrible.

I will never forget the look of disgust I received.

Some people really are just so programmed that they don't know how to respond to something honest, instead of "I'm good, how are you" so they can start talking about themselves.

(10-24-2017, 04:58 PM)Rares Wrote:

(10-24-2017, 06:07 AM)Kaltes-Herzeleid Wrote: I remember way back during the divorce, one of my mother's friends asked me how I was or how life was or something like that, and for once I opted to be honest and answered that it far from good and I was feeling terrible.

I will never forget the look of disgust I received.

Some people really are just so programmed that they don't know how to respond to something honest, instead of "I'm good, how are you" so they can start talking about themselves.

it is funny that i see this today. to be honest... I was about to start a thread about this but umm.... i am currently living in a hotel and watching dad run himself out of money to keep me there where i can atleast have a bed and food available to me, all because my stepmother simply hates me. literally the woman flew into some kind of pshychotic rage and started throwing around furniture because she didnt like me being at home.

not one person tries to get her into a shrink to deal with whatever causes her to regularly start flipping out like this, but it happens and i get punished by being told that financially things are quickly going to result in me being homeless...



the simple and easy answer is most of humanity isnt human any more because they do not want to help you.. like you said they are self serving pieces of shit.
only a few people out there honestly care.

for what it is worth i actually am one of those people even though i have been an ass plenty of times in the past.