(07-27-2015, 02:40 PM)Kaltes-Herzeleid Wrote:

(07-27-2015, 02:36 PM)StableRelationship Wrote: Try to relax and lose some of your tension while you're talking to her. I know this is going to sound vague, but try to 'let her' speak rather than forcing it. Things are a lot less strenuous that way.

There have been times where her response seems to just come to me rather easy and it takes little effort. (Though lately I have been stressing off and on, so that doesn't help)

Yeah, being relaxed is the best way to go. While I've found that being stressed to the point of freaking out can help when it occurs, I wouldn't recommend deliberately inducing that state with a ten foot pole. The distress isn't worth it, and it borders way too close to legitimate crazy for me xD.

BTW, it's possible that you might find meditation helpful to clear your mind. Google a few exercises, and see if it helps you relax and concentrate on Nightmare.

What Stable said. Or, if you'd like, send me a PM wherever you have my contact and we'll talk about meditation a little.

After having a long talk with Lurker I've decided to start finally trying true meditation. I've been scared to do so because I feel as though I can't quiet my mind, but he explained it in a way that I found feasible (and after a motivational bit as well, at least I found it so) I felt a determination renew in me.

So I last night I quieted my mind...and I can safely say in terms of voice, there IS something. I felt like my body was floating and shifting in empty space, I told myself there was no sound but her voice, and I would occasionally (with gentleness) channel her voice sparingly. It was easy and felt separate from me. Other times I was silent as I could be. Allowing my mind to softly fill in the blanks.

This was at least seven minutes.

This afternoon, I made an effort to not pay attention to the time, repeating the process of last night. By the tIme I finally reopened my eyes it was close to (or exactly) 12:30 P.M. I must've got in at least ten or fifteen minutes. Wasn't that hard either.

Each time I've felt like I was becoming closer to Nightmare. I know there is something there, perhaps more than ever now.

Voice seems easier now...especially after I've started meditating.

(07-29-2015, 06:05 AM)Kaltes-Herzeleid Wrote: Voice seems easier now...especially after I've started meditating.

With or without her plush nearby?

(07-29-2015, 07:47 AM)Sour Soul Wrote: With or without her plush nearby?

Both. Though it does seem stronger with plush.


Also, my four hundredth post here.

Congratulations . Glad to hear you're going so well.

(07-30-2015, 11:51 PM)StableRelationship Wrote: Congratulations . Glad to hear you're going so well.

Thank you.

Anyway, while I meditate I make sure not to focus on time too much, to just go for as long as I can. Last time I did so I felt like there was something vaguely on the outskirts of my mind, when I didn't gently channel her voice I felt like it could have been her voice whispering my name without any real effort or thought on my end of things.

This whole process has truly helped to remind me that there is something there and I just need to keep working.

(07-31-2015, 05:19 AM)Kaltes-Herzeleid Wrote: ...I felt like it could have been her voice whispering my name without any real effort or thought on my end of things.

Soon, Nightmare will whisper that she loves you with no ease. ^ ^

(07-31-2015, 05:19 AM)Kaltes-Herzeleid Wrote: Thank you.

Anyway, while I meditate I make sure not to focus on time too much, to just go for as long as I can. Last time I did so I felt like there was something vaguely on the outskirts of my mind, when I didn't gently channel her voice I felt like it could have been her voice whispering my name without any real effort or thought on my end of things.

This whole process has truly helped to remind me that there is something there and I just need to keep working.

Sounding good so far.

Remember too that even the concept of 'as long as I can' is still within the notion of time. Forget time. Face your clocks away. What matters is all that you perceive. Stay a while, and bask in her voice, the sight of her, the way she feels. When you awaken, all that will be on your mind is her. No time, no anything, but what you'd just witnessed.