Lately I somehow feel more comfortable with voice, like it feels more real. If that makes sense.

I'm putting more effort into believing and trusting myself and her. I'm trying to feel too much pressure.

Alright, so I spoke back and forth with Nightmare quite a bit yesterday...and it was pretty easy, all things considering. What I felt was clearly separate from myself most of the time, and very clear at times. There were moments I could've sworn I heard words being spoken in my ears or around me. Or moments where it felt like it was coming from the plush, sort of, anyway. And there were times the words flowed very easily, I didn't have to struggle to channel them.

Another thing is that I'm making an effort to believe and trust in her and myself, and our connection. To not obsess over some *perceived* minor flaw that shakes my whole belief despite me knowing the truth.

Perhaps that why it was easy yesterday. I'm going to continue with this resolve, persist and trust, not obsess.


Thoughts from anyone on this...?

Good job, and good ideas of what to do. Keep it up.

(08-05-2015, 02:52 AM)Kaltes-Herzeleid Wrote: Thoughts from anyone on this...?

Sounds like that is the right mindset to maintain. Believe in yourself and believe in Nightmare. Trust her and trust that she trusts you.

Also, keep talking!

Hold on... I like to place my thoughts here, but want to make sure I got this right...

(08-05-2015, 02:52 AM)Kaltes-Herzeleid Wrote: Perhaps that why it was easy yesterday. I'm going to continue with this resolve, persist and trust, not obsess.

I had to look up the word obsess means... While I know the word means, but I wanted to MAKE sure I got what you mean here Kaltes...

I wouldn't say that you're obsess Kaltes, just from the time I known you, by what you have willing to post for us, it will just be a misconception for using that word. Don't you think Kaltes?

To me, you never seem over or even just obsess with Nightmare.. Just trying hard to connect with her just where you're satisfied.

What make you use the word obsess? I am just wondering, because it's a word I wouldn't use with Amena... I knew if I gone overboard... then I would use the bloody word. -__-

(08-05-2015, 07:58 AM)Sour Soul Wrote: I had to look up the word obsess means... While I know the word means, but I wanted to MAKE sure I got what you mean here Kaltes...

I wouldn't say that you're obsess Kaltes, just from the time I known you, by what you have willing to post for us, it will just be a misconception for using that word. Don't you think Kaltes?

To me, you never seem over or even just obsess with Nightmare.. Just trying hard to connect with her just where you're satisfied.

What make you use the word obsess? I am just wondering, because it's a word I wouldn't use with Amena... I knew if I gone overboard... then I would use the bloody word. -__-

I use the word "obsess" because there are moments where I'm stricken with doubt and start fixating on it, testing and trying to reaffirm that's what's happening is real. I obsess over perceived problems...Lurker tells me I doubt just to doubt at times. He's correct. I'm making sure I stop.

Post here before I go to work.

Been persisting at speech, and I'm certain there is something there. Sometimes her words come easy to my mind and I feel something in my head or around me...though sometimes it all blur together, like I can't tell what's her and what's me. Sadly I haven't been able to meditate in a few days because of my stupid job. Been working on physically viewing her with me, which helps the speech. Often when I picture her in a specific area or let's say we're hugging and I channel her voice, I feel that echo coming from where I her head/mouth is.

Lately everything feels easier and more...real. My casting aside of doubt and not allowing myself to worry seems to have strengthened her voice. It feels more real, there really have been moments it feels like something is coming from the plush.

Okay...not sure if this entirely happened.

When Nightmare and I were laying down to sleep I could've sworn I heard the words "GOOD NIGHT" come from her. Clearly, if I recall.

It's been so wonderful reading over the progress you've made while I've been away from the forum! One truly sees a journey from a certain degree of doubt and maybe even worry to the joy, comfort, and peace of Nightmare Rarity's presence! You're hearing her so clearly now, and that makes me incredibly happy!

I hope you'll continue to inform us of how things go between you two in terms of perception.