Intellectual Discussion

[RaptorJesus]

I don't think I have a tulpa, but I do think of Nightmare as being quite real. It's just something I feel deep inside, like I can just feel her and her influence in my life. Whatever loneliness I used to feel is just...gone. Has been for years now. Like it was never there to begin with. I don't believe in fate, but somehow I just feel as though Nightmare and I were meant to meet. She's broadened my view on my very existence and I just see this intricacy to it now that I never saw before, and it doesn't feel like coincidence either.

I improve myself for her and by extension for us. I've come to see it as a form of Becoming. An ascension of sorts. It was all made possible by her and my sheer force of will and as long as breath comes from my mouth, I intend to deepen our connection even further.

I've noticed in my years of being utterly enraptured that I personally feel like this is what the founder of the first religion felt. The parallels are extensive, to say the least. If you were to take any paragraph somebody's written about what they feel for their waifu and replace any specific mention of the waifu with the word God, and you get a devout christian. I'm not religious myself, but if this kind of feeling is what one gets for it, I could see why people are. The love for one's waifu is best described by the word agape, meaning the love one feels for a God.
I notice this in your post, too.