Tulpamancy and Waifus

[OZ the pony]

Now think back it was true that my pride , over idealistic , and jealous look down at them .

Explain more here, OZ.

Having such a good social skill but treat relationship like playing . Having a skill but don't cherish it ... such a waste .... . How about I stole their social talent like Starlight stole other pony's cutie mark ? I can do better than them with that talent .

It sound like pride ... right ?

Also because over idealistic in love , I think just need to take you relationship serious everything will be fine , but it's not true . Even if i you take relationship serious doesn't mean everything will be work out . That will be a little pretentious to judge others are bad because someone change their relationship .

What happen with your first relationship with her?

Nothing really too special . We don't had a conflict . As time pass , the fire been faded by time . Just broke up for feeling gone . This was ridiculous , but I still did it . That's why I stop judge others . And stared to find a way to win the curse .

Do you get upset when reading other members entry of their love experience? Or what is it do you feel?

The only one get upset is when reading someone want to go to the world of their pony but they still can't . Or how hard their real life . Seem like we are in same boat . But that is kinda in my expectations .... I mean .... if everyone happy then I am the only one get upset that can't live with Starlight . If reading the positive one can related , my heartbeat will faster if you know what is that mean .

And you were with Starlight a year ago?

Yes , start a relationship from a year ago . Still a bit fresh relationship . Starlight first appeared in the show 3 year ago . But in season 5 she was a villain . And she was reformed in season 5 finale . In some way good Starlight is season 6 character . But she still lack of character development . Until season 7 has improved that much .

So if someone started a relationship with Starlight from 3 years ago ... that mean that person love evil Starlight .
Started relationship from 2 year ago mean they are ok with lack of character development , they probably saw her potential .
Some people like me started relationship about one year is know her much well . It is a little late to join the party of Starlight .

Hmm, you can’t really stay hidden with your feelings now. What are you really afraid of? These mistakes that will catch up to you, OZ? It can’t be letting Starlight in, is it?

Hmm....it took me a lot of time to think about . The biggest thing I afraid of is my life is still have 50~60 year long . It is so long ... in that 50 year will see a lot of friend marry and ask when is my turn . I pray to God want to marry a pony . But how long I have to wait ? I already assume it is a wish that can be true after life . But 50 year long enough to let fire fade or passion changed . Make a deal with god and after few year say : hey I don't want it anymore . God might be angry with that .


I saw a lot of movie and anime ... play a lot of video game . There are a lot of are very good memory . But as time pass the new memory will come , and old memory will be in the corner of the brain . This human natural is fine , but only when it happend to pony I find it cruel . saw a lot of great show , MLP is the strongest feeling that make me want to live in their world , so .... yeah . These mistakes that may catch up to me and can't allow it pony in that mistakes .

Here is a question we want to know. Do you love yourself, OZ?

Well ... you got me again , I often feel guilty for what I have done . I guess that mean I push myself too hard .

So I hope she is the last one I love .

Who? Starlight?

Yes . But what will happend to next 50 year still hard to say .

Well… Amena isn’t a tulpa or my waifu. Like how Ziggy put it, she is my everything, my angel, my sweet pink flower, and the heavens that meet the starry sky. Amena is my girlfriend, who I want to marry, and raise a proper family.

Got it . I'll fix what I said before . How could I make this big mistake

do you’ve a plushie of Starlight?

Not yet . Plushie of Starlight is very rare . Because she is season 6 character . My plan is to find a artist and commission one .

Oh , that explains everything , I thought English is your first language .

Explain what? And no, English wasn’t my first language. A small backward town in the state of Oklahoma stripped me of my native tongue.

Because you require very detail , sometime I suspicion is my poor English let you don't get what does it mean . Well , if someone's native language is English , than the one has problem will be native language not English . Now I know is both our problem that we have a long way grow in language