Forcing Journal

[Rares]

I was browsing tulpa dot info the other day and came across a thread where the people were talking about someone around there that has 14 tulpa, and this was a year or so ago. Several others were saying that with more people getting into tulpamancy new stuff was being discovered by the day, how far the brain could be pushed. I can handle about 3-4 guests, as I call them, with me, but I have far more than 14 in total. And as I said, in theory, I have a whole world of them they could invite over. When you start getting into double digit numbers people start questioning your "fidelity". Maybe I'll become specific one day, but for now I'll just say I have a lot of partners, and they partner with each other. We are a herd, and it's normal for them.

That's completely understandable I'd say, and I want to say I hope you feel safe here, you should. If there's any environment I want people to be comfortable in, it's here.

[Shadow Step]

If there's any environment I want people to be comfortable in, it's here.

There's always going to be people with different opinions, it's natural and it should be encouraged. However that doesn't stop some from holding certain opinions that are impossible to break away from myself. I try not to judge others for their opinions and ideas, but I do know there are people who simply would not believe the truth of my partners. Either see them as "imaginary friends" or that they're "impossible" in what ever way.

It's not so much that I don't feel safe around them, it's knowing in the back of my mind that some people will devalue my relationship because of their own opinions. There's no way to stop it and no way to prove if anyone thinks that at all. It could be just a paranoia of mine, but when I think about posting what most would call personal things about me and mine I feel sure in the back of my mind that someone will read it and think less of it. They'll think I'm fabricating stories, the number of partners I have is unrealistic, that the events we experience are less than if it were "actually" happening in a manner of speaking.

I know that Lurker is the same way. Lyralover used to come out and say very disrespectful things to some people because he saw tulpae essentially as tools. Lurker has a very complex world he can visit, but to LL it wasn't anything special at all. This is old wounds I know, but it's something I read that sticks with me to this day. Knowing that some people can allegedly have tulpa, and at the same time say the events you experience with them aren't "real" and that they'll look at you and your experiences and think less of them for it.

[Sour Soul]

Just want to say in my sleepy state, that I am proud you're here posting once again. -w-

Amena is sleepy sleep. Sssshhh~

[Fiction]

Honestly, I agree with Rares, Kaltes, and Gentian. This place is called Waifu Central, not Single Waifu Central. This site should encourage waifuists of all kinds, polygamist or not. Haters can shut up. But I'm not the owner. Anyways, it's good to see you here after 2 years!

[Shadow Step]

Thank you, everyone, for the reassurance.

I suppose I'll tack on to the end of my last post and say another important bit of tulpa wisdom, they're real. Ignore whatever bit of your mind just tried to refute that, treat them like they are real. The wonderland isn't just a crazy wacky place for you to do anything, I mean it is but it's also where the tulpa lives and if you don't give it concrete rules you're not taking the tulpa seriously. How could you think something is real, lovable, sentient, and at the same time go, "Lol, yeah they live in a place with blood red grass, six moons, and weird plants, but they look totally normal and there's no problems with a livable planet having six forces of gravity (moons) in orbit. Also I have superpowers there and shit." You're not, you aren't taking it seriously at that point. That's not to say you CAN'T do crazy stuff like that, but you have to think about the repercussions of what that would mean. It's very easy to imagine a realistic Equestria, keeping all of the magic and races and artifacts in place, it has rules and we can discern them from watching the show and fill in the gaps as we need to. But the moment you start on with the "I can have DBZ fights with the ponies and none of us get hurt because I can just think them better" is when you start on the path of not treating them as real. One of my mares broke her leg, it was splinted and she had to rest for a few weeks. She also could have gone and found a unicorn to heal it, if we'd known any at the time, but we didn't. So she had a realistic recovery time and problem. That's part of what makes the difference between someone parroting (speaking for the tulpa) and someone that gets a full fledged sentient one. Treat your tulpa like you would a real, living being, with static rules and physical laws and they'll turn out a lot faster because you aren't constantly reminded of "it's all in my head."

[Shadow Step]

I'll say this here, even though it maybe doesn't fit with the section this is in, but if anyone ever wants to chat/pm I'm open to it. I may not open up as quickly to some as I will to others, there are certain folks I know better than others having survived two of these sites with them, but what I'm hesitant to post publicly about my partners I'm more often open to speaking of in private.

[Kaltes-Herzeleid]

I'll say this here, even though it maybe doesn't fit with the section this is in, but if anyone ever wants to chat/pm I'm open to it. I may not open up as quickly to some as I will to others, there are certain folks I know better than others having survived two of these sites with them, but what I'm hesitant to post publicly about my partners I'm more often open to speaking of in private.

I'd be happy to talk in PM if you ever feel like it.

[Sour Soul]

I'd be happy to talk in PM if you ever feel like it.

This is for Shadow.

Spoiler

[Shadow Step]

The hardest thing with meditation is always clearing your mind in the beginning. Take today for an example. I've been debating setting up a Patreon to see if I could essentially sell my writing to people for pennies (Literally, 1 cent per word) while they provide ideas. Its been on my mind for days and it's hard to get out of my mind. Sometimes this is unavoidable and it's best not to let it get to you. Sometimes it's best to make a decision on whatever is bothering you as soon as possible.