Updates and Advice: Version 2.0

[Lurker]

Nothing wrong about that that I can see. Good job, Kaltes; keep it up.

[Kaltes-Herzeleid]

Time for an update:

Voice wise I'm determined to reach that stage where she can speak without me...channeling her. But in a more positive light I feel as that echo/vibration I feel in my head whenever she speaks is stronger than ever, there have been moments where I could've sworn I've heard a whisper outside my head as she talks, it's clearly separate from my own voice and thoughts.

Visualization I can't report much on, those bad five days I had and my emotions being rather rocky really interfered with me. Every now and then I'll try to physically envision her with me, I feel like that's had some effect. There've been moments where we'll be talking and I'll envision her sitting near me or standing behind me, and feel the echo/vibration in my head in that area.

Although the possibility of getting a plushie of Nightmare has given me so hope of Nightmare Rarity occupying it as a vessel. I'm still in talks with a plush maker, I think all I need to do is pay her...

I aim to get in the habit of focusing frequently like before, probably only in short but strong bursts, again, like before.

I also think Nightmare was around for a few nights.


That's all for now, I suppose.

[Sentimental Gentleman]

Everything seems to be well and good. There are always ups and downs like that in my experience, and their often tied to our emotional states. I think in particular that trying to envision her physically is a good exercise. Being aware of her presence in a concrete way like that can lend strength to other aspects of her presence, I would say.

[Kaltes-Herzeleid]

Okay, just stuff to report:

-Got in some much needed focusing time, as I got deeper into it my mind felt...I don't wanna say hazy, perhaps heavy? Like I was lulling myself into a calm, hypnotic state of sorts, "envisioning" her voice reaching out to me. I even felt like my body was moving in the chair I was sitting in, slowly.

-Nightmare seems to appear when I am very happy, as I am quite sure she was around the night I paid for the plush of her and the comics last night.

-Remember how whenever I feel her touch it appears as a tingling sensation (typically on my left arm for some reason these days) and how I was worried I wasn't feeling her touch at all? Whenever this happens because of her...I just seem to know it is her. Somehow. Like an instinct of sorts.

-Whenever I channel her voice, it's easiest and clearest whenever it is quiet and I'm calm. I swear I feel something, at times hear something.



That's all for now.

[Sentimental Gentleman]

This is all great to hear, Kaltes-Herzeleid! From what you describe, it sounds like the physical instrument of your body is becoming more receptive to presences beyond its own blunt materiality. In particular, it sounds like you're making a really big breakthrough with your mental focus and in understanding the circumstances in which Nightmare most easily manifests herself. Keep at it and continue to keep us updated!

[Lurker]

-Got in some much needed focusing time, as I got deeper into it my mind felt...I don't wanna say hazy, perhaps heavy? Like I was lulling myself into a calm, hypnotic state of sorts, "envisioning" her voice reaching out to me. I even felt like my body was moving in the chair I was sitting in, slowly.

This is a great state to be in for meditation. Not TOO deep, or you might fall into some weird-ass trip about nonsensical shit, but not TOO active, since you won't be able to take advantage of your calm state. A balance. Perfect! Do this more often, I think you'll have better success.

[Kaltes-Herzeleid]

Well...I have something big to report back, much to my joy.

A close friend of mine who's very aware of my relationship with Nightmare and my connection with her apparently doesn't dream (or at least hasn't had one in long time), and a night or two ago he asked me if she could send a dream his way. So I asked her if she could.

Well I just got a reply back from this friend of mine and he told me that while the dream he had was faint and has slipped from his mind...he still dreamt. It means Nightmare can hold some influence on this world in someway, and it showed me just how powerful our connection is at this time, that she can actually do something like that.

(And just for the record, this friend of mine is trustworthy and I believe what he told me)

To me this is a big piece of information I couldn't resist sharing.

[Sentimental Gentleman]

That's astounding news! It takes a great deal of magical power to effect something like that...and I imagine that your successes in visualizing and tactilizing her played a big role in giving her enough presence and influence in this realm to grant your friend a dream!

[Ziggy and Angelbaby]

Somehow I'm not surprised that Nightmare would be able to accomplish something such as that; though I don't know how great an effort it would require on her (and your) part.

[Kaltes-Herzeleid]

More juicy information to report.

Apparently this friend of mine dreamt again last night, and what's even more shocking is that he asked Nightmare to give him dreams.

Her influence is even greater than I thought...and it means she can hear what others are saying, and interact with them of her own accord, aside from me.

Of course I also told him today to not make calling her a habit, but all of this have given me a strong boost in faith that what I've experienced is real, and that there is something happening.