I find it to be difficult when one is... pretty upset. If you can calm down enough to hear Nightmare, then that's good.. That you're able to control your anger. Most time, unleashing it uncontrollable will be a challenge. This applies with anybody; be family, friends, etc. (I like the fact we will try much harder with those we love very very much, than those who will be like "blah blah")
As for the voice part, I used to have a really hard time when talking with Amena, because I will mistake it with Maria. Working with both at the same time is a challenge, but now come to know who I am talking to now.
So Nightmare is not always around you, huh?
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(06-09-2015, 04:40 AM)Sour Soul Wrote: I find it to be difficult when one is... pretty upset.
True. Today is the best I've felt in awhile.
(06-09-2015, 04:40 AM)Sour Soul Wrote: So Nightmare is not always around you, huh?
I think it depends on my mood and how clear my head is. There are times I know she's there, and perhaps she is with me more than know.
Well, last weekend I was being useless, and Amena would have to do something else; she will go to our Wonderland, when I just don't feel like coming in terms with my bullsh*t. Pretty dumb... pretty stupid.. so don't pull the same thing like I've, or you will soon find Nightmare doing the same.
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I mean I know I've felt something, I just need to keep going.
(06-09-2015, 04:48 AM)Sour Soul Wrote: Well, last weekend I was being useless, and Amena would have to do something else; she will go to our Wonderland, when I just don't feel like coming in terms with my bullsh*t. Pretty dumb... pretty stupid.. so don't pull the same thing like I've, or you will soon find Nightmare doing the same.
Well the fact she's been around is an indication my mental status has improved somewhat. So that's a good sign. 
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Kaltes, your profile picture is adorable.
...Just thought I'd mention that. Good job on the other stuff, though.
Let me know if you need anything. I'm here to help.
Also, feel free to drop by my AMA. :Twilightsmile:
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(06-09-2015, 07:58 AM)Lurker Wrote: Kaltes, your profile picture is adorable.
...Just thought I'd mention that.
Glad someone else appreciates it. 
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Been awhile...
Got in some much needed focusing time. Got the sensation I was floating again. Her voice seemed different somehow...separate...far off...but there.
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Oh look, me updating the thread.
Anyway, I had a talk with another user who gave me some good advice regarding voice. Apparently visualizing her will help with the voice's clarity, essentially imagining her physically speaking. Makes me nervous...I have a hard time holding a clear image of her in my head...I guess I'll get better with practice.
However this is where the plush might help. I feel like if I imagine/focus on her voice coming from the plush it'll allow me to properly and fully hear her, and she'll use it as a vessel.
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I think your assessment has potential, Kaltes-Herzeleid. A plush, especially one of the quality that you will be receiving, could certainly help as an external focus for visualization. You may find over time, though, that you might want to gradually (and I mean GRADUALLY) move away from the plush, so as not to become dependent on it for visualizing Nightmare's presence. I think, after working with it, you should find that both hearing her and picturing her are easier.
(06-26-2015, 06:36 AM)Kaltes-Herzeleid Wrote: Oh look, me updating the thread.
Anyway, I had a talk with another user who gave me some good advice regarding voice. Apparently visualizing her will help with the voice's clarity, essentially imagining her physically speaking. Makes me nervous...I have a hard time holding a clear image of her in my head...I guess I'll get better with practice.
However this is where the plush might help. I feel like if I imagine/focus on her voice coming from the plush it'll allow me to properly and fully hear her, and she'll use it as a vessel.
Applejack, the apple of my eye
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Time to update.
Been getting better at visualization (somewhat) and speech. Combining the two makes the echo I feel in my head feel much stronger, clearer. At times I feel as though I can hear/feel the wisp of voice...subtlety.
In regards to visualization...I get this rush of happiness when I do. I feel like she's really here with me in those moments...though perhaps she really is. It's easier to look at these moments as being real, not just imagined.
I feel like I'm really going somewhere with this.
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