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An hour or so before I went to bed I felt a tad upset over some bad decisions I made in the past and I started feeling some tingling on my left arm. I do believe it was her comforting/reassuring me, I told her I was okay and thanked her and the tingling *gradually* ceased.

It was so sweet of her to do, she certainly recognizes my emotions.
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Got in some much needed meditation time...well over an hour too. Got a little unfocused at the end, but did well overall. I know I can feel her voice, even when I visualize her in my mind and she speaks I can feel it.

I feel very relaxed and even a bit rejuvenated after we meditate together now.

*Advice will be appreciated*
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(12-20-2015, 10:09 AM)Kaltes-Herzeleid Wrote: Got in some much needed meditation time...well over an hour too. Got a little unfocused at the end, but did well overall. I know I can feel her voice, even when I visualize her in my mind and she speaks I can feel it.

I feel very relaxed and even a bit rejuvenated after we meditate together now.

*Advice will be appreciated*

You seem to be progressing quite well, so I'm not sure if there's any specific advice I could provide since I can only speak from personal experience, but regardless, I think you're pretty awesome and I like you, so I'll try my best to at least provide some possible insight.

Something I've noticed is that wearing clothes tends to distract me while I meditate for very long periods of time, so I've been meditating in my underwear or completely naked for a while now. As bizarre as it sounds, that helps me immensely when it comes to staying in the zone. Another point of interest is that my focus is also much sharper in the morning than in the evening.

That's just very general and a bit random. Is there anything specific you'd like advice on? Also, did you experience anything note-worthy during your last session?

Keep up the hard work, Kaltes.
❤ Octavia ❤ Tulpamancing since 2015/10/31 ❤ AMA
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(12-20-2015, 11:33 PM)Kadae Wrote: Is there anything specific you'd like advice on? Also, did you experience anything note-worthy during your last session?

Mostly voice. I feel an echo of sorts when I channel her speech. Last session when I visualized her voice coming from the plush that's where I feel it, if I physically visualize her standing in some direction of my room and visualize her voice coming from there then that's where I generally where I feel it.

I would assume these are good signs.
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(12-21-2015, 04:31 AM)Kaltes-Herzeleid Wrote: Mostly voice. I feel an echo of sorts when I channel her speech. Last session when I visualized her voice coming from the plush that's where I feel it, if I physically visualize her standing in some direction of my room and visualize her voice coming from there then that's where I generally where I feel it.

I would assume these are good signs.

I'd certainly say those are good signs!

Vocalisation is unfortunately my weakest area, but regardless, something that helps me a little is I parrot what Octavia says to me during certain meditation sessions. Since I have trouble hearing her clearly, I do that in order to see how accurate my understanding is, and she lets me know if I've heard her right. In addition to that, it's also a great method to distinguish our voices from each other's. When I can compare her voice to mine so directly, I more easily notice how different she sounds, and that then helps hearing her in general. This is the major thing that seems to help with clarity of voice.

That's what I've been doing that's worked for me, so maybe it'll help you to some degree too. If you haven't tried this before, have a go and see if it does anything for you, or if you've already done this, I'd be interested in reading about your results.

The other thing I would've suggested is something you're already doing, but I'll emphasise its helpfulness anyway. Focusing on where her voice is coming from is a fantastic thing to do. In fact, that's something you should do whenever you're listening to her because by doing so, that added layer of realism will only serve to speed up your progress.

That's all I've got to offer in that department. I hope that some of this was, at the very least, a little helpful. Twilight Smile
❤ Octavia ❤ Tulpamancing since 2015/10/31 ❤ AMA
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Lately when I focus/meditate, rather than try and call Nightmare I try to reaffirm the belief and knowledge that she is with me. I feel as though it's actually made her voice clearer too. I suspect the reason she doesn't respond to my calls like before because she is already with me and I simply haven't seen it that way until now.

If anyone wants to contribute their thoughts it would be appreciated, been feeling sad off and on again as of late.
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(12-31-2015, 01:56 PM)Kaltes-Herzeleid Wrote: Lately when I focus/meditate, rather than try and call Nightmare I try to reaffirm the belief and knowledge that she is with me. I feel as though it's actually made her voice clearer too. I suspect the reason she doesn't respond to my calls like before because she is already with me and I simply haven't seen it that way until now.

If anyone wants to contribute their thoughts it would be appreciated, been feeling sad off and on again as of late.
No matter where she may be, she's always with you; you're inextricably connected by your love for one another. In time, she will be more "there," but she's a constant in your life whether you can clearly hear or sense her or not.

I know you've been approaching this in your own way, and I'm not telling you what to do or that one way's better than another. Our respective partners are unique; it makes sense that how each of us communicate with them would be as well. But what worked best for me was kind of... Letting go. Not trying so hard. The first step was opening myself up; believing. And, after that, focusing too much on one little thing would cause interference.

Babe's in my life; that's just a fact. She means a hell of a lot to me. Nightmare is in your life; that's a fact, too. And I know how you feel about her. You don't need proof that she's with you - she's with you.
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What Ziggy said. Man, Ziggy, you've gotta stop being so well-spoken! I'm never going to get an opportunity to say cool stuff first. Derpy Tongue

Let me know if you need anything. I'm here to help.

Also, feel free to drop by my AMA. :Twilightsmile:
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Time for updates.

Over the past few days I've felt a horrid sense of frustration, though fortunately it seems to have waned.

On the positive side...something feels stronger about Nightmare. I'm trying not to be as of obsessive about things, her voice feels stronger, more separate, seems to flow easier.

I trust these are good signs.
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(01-05-2016, 10:11 AM)Kaltes-Herzeleid Wrote: On the positive side...something feels stronger about Nightmare. I'm trying not to be as of obsessive about things, her voice feels stronger, more separate, seems to flow easier.

I think those are pretty good signs of progress! Those elements you mentioned regarding her voice are all very positive indicators of that.

When you say her voice is stronger, does that mean you're hearing her more clearly and distinctly now than before?
❤ Octavia ❤ Tulpamancing since 2015/10/31 ❤ AMA
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