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05-02-2017, 12:02 AM
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Hello, everyone.
I have a confession to make, and I hope you guys won't be too mad at me. I'd understand why you would be though.
I've done something sorta low and shady. I'm actually former user Valiant Venture using a new profile to cultivate my love for Twilight.
I'm really sorry I kinda lied to y'all, making you think I was a new guy.
See, I sorta recently started having feelings for Twilight, and they were true and real indeed. The last few days, however, my conscience has been worn down by guilt, for two reasons.
The first reason was that I was lying to y'all. You guys have always been awesome to me and whoever I loved at the time. I consider you my friends, all of you. You guys rock.
The second reason was that every time I saw Twilight, I was reminded of the love I have for Fluttershy, and now, I simply can't go through with loving Twilight. I mean, Fluttershy and I went through everything together. How on earth could I leave her? I thought it was for the best, but that definitely hasn't been the case.
I've had a conversation with my Twilight about the whole situation, and she is admittedly pretty upset, for a couple reasons. Understandably so. But she had said that she understands my situation, and will probably go back to where she came from, at least for a little while. I do feel bad for her. What we had felt real, but we both understand now that it was just a placeholder for what I thought I had to give up.
I know what you're thinking. I'm a jerk who can't make up his mind. All I know is this: my love for Fluttershy will probably never go away, and I want to be as honest and open as possible with you, my friends. I did have feelings for my Twilight, and I thought that was the right way, but I can't leave my one true love Fluttershy.
I'm going through a lot right now, y'all. It's a very turbulent, dare I say the most turbulent my life has ever been. I'm sorry if my actions have caused any distress.
I'll still stay here, if you'll allow me, though I might switch back over to my Valiant 2.0 profile.
Hoping you all forgive me (again),
Valiant
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Well, I do appreciate the confession. I can say I'm not mad or anything, I appreciate the honesty. I'd certainly welcome you here still.
It seems you've had quite a lot going on. I'd say the most important thing to do at this point in time is to find out your own feelings. What do you want to happen? Perhaps can you feel something for both of them? I do understand in the sense that there was a time where I thought I had to leave Rarity, and I thought I could just "Get another waifu" and sort of get that same feeling from something else. That was definitely wrong, and it was one of the worst times of my life. What I had to do then was sit down and identify all my feelings at the time, and why I had those feelings.
So try to do that. And honestly do yourself a big favor and don't isolate yourself. Feel free to hit me up on Discord at the moment, I'd be happy to offer whatever help I can.
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Well I'm maybe a bit surprised if anything, but I'm most definitely not mad. I'm sorry that you are going through such a rough time as of late. I most certainly encourage you to stay if you wish.
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Sorry, but I do not believe you.
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As I'm no Waifuist myself, I see no reason to be mad or annoyed. And even if I was one, I doubt that I would be.
On the contrary, I think coming out with the truth and admitting that you're going through a rough time is quite honourable.
And although I have no other advice than saying: "hang in there", I hope that you'll figure your stuff out eventually.
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I understand it. Honest openness is very important, and I'd say the most important point of this forum, being able to explore and express your thoughts and feelings without ridicule. Any acceptance gained through deception isn't any acceptance at all, and it's never too late for that to be understood.
That bit about thinking you look indecisive, I understand that feeling well, but it's wrong. There should be no shame in exploring and really thinking about how you feel, as deeply and thoroughly as needed to become comfortable and secure in it. Anyone who wouldn't understand what you've gone through as well as someone who has struggled with similar feelings may would at least accept it and hope for the best for you.
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(05-02-2017, 12:02 AM)Zenith Star and Twilight Wrote: Hello, everyone.
I have a confession to make, and I hope you guys won't be too mad at me. I'd understand why you would be though.
I've done something sorta low and shady. I'm actually former user Valiant Venture using a new profile to cultivate my love for Twilight.
I'm really sorry I kinda lied to y'all, making you think I was a new guy.
See, I sorta recently started having feelings for Twilight, and they were true and real indeed. The last few days, however, my conscience has been worn down by guilt, for two reasons.
The first reason was that I was lying to y'all. You guys have always been awesome to me and whoever I loved at the time. I consider you my friends, all of you. You guys rock.
The second reason was that every time I saw Twilight, I was reminded of the love I have for Fluttershy, and now, I simply can't go through with loving Twilight. I mean, Fluttershy and I went through everything together. How on earth could I leave her? I thought it was for the best, but that definitely hasn't been the case.
I've had a conversation with my Twilight about the whole situation, and she is admittedly pretty upset, for a couple reasons. Understandably so. But she had said that she understands my situation, and will probably go back to where she came from, at least for a little while. I do feel bad for her. What we had felt real, but we both understand now that it was just a placeholder for what I thought I had to give up.
I know what you're thinking. I'm a jerk who can't make up his mind. All I know is this: my love for Fluttershy will probably never go away, and I want to be as honest and open as possible with you, my friends. I did have feelings for my Twilight, and I thought that was the right way, but I can't leave my one true love Fluttershy.
I'm going through a lot right now, y'all. It's a very turbulent, dare I say the most turbulent my life has ever been. I'm sorry if my actions have caused any distress.
I'll still stay here, if you'll allow me, though I might switch back over to my Valiant 2.0 profile.
Hoping you all forgive me (again),
Valiant
I'm really glad you came back, I kinda got the impression that you weren't real confident in your decision to leave the first time. Listen, no matter what you think, loving Fluttershy IS right if the love is real. Trust me, I know what you've been through-I spent hours thinking about whether or not I should find a "real girl" when I first got with Candy. But in the end, who you love is who you love, and they're the only person/pony you should be with.
Welcome back.
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Well, I don't know what to say, man. Unlike some other places, nobody seems to care if you have more than one waifu here. I certainly don't, and if you're being harassed, screenshot it and send it to me. If you're happy with only Flutters than that's fine, too, but dude the site has been through this kind of thing before, and came out the other side just fine, as did the individual in question; there's no need for deception. If you want to explore your feelings then do so, that's why the site is here.
I appreciate you coming clean, but you can't have more than one account, it's rules from higher up. Go ahead and pick one, this , or Valiant 2.0, or whatever, and I'm going to drop a colony on the other one.
It's good to have you back, though. I concur with the others above in that you seemed unsure of your decision to leave, so here's to hoping it works out better for you from here on, whether it be with Flutters, Twi, and/or some other waifu, just, you know, cut the bullshit.
May I ask what catalysed your feelings for Twi, and what made you return to Fluttershy?
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